Hello, Mary and welcome to the best place to be for CC support. Next, CONGRATULATIONS on having a successful surgery. Surgery is our favorite word. Last but far from least you are totally normal as are your feelings. Positivity helps with the stress and instead of you being in denial it is everyone around you in denial and that must be awful and adds to your stress. Your body does not need stress as it hampers healing and you need all your strength to fight CC and getting back to normal. If it was me and all you have gone through I would have a talk with your family and while being positive sometimes one just needs and deserves a good cry! Yes, be strong, yes, be positive but don't let them all railroad you with their fears. Talking it all out and having everything in the open brings relief. I know in the beginning you feel as though you were hit with a baseball bat but I swear to you soon your fright will turn to fight but you do need your team of family and Doctors to fight with you. Please keep us updated and I am anxious for the ONC report when you see him and what his plan of follow up will be. Take care and you are not alone as you have a whole new BIG family here.