My husband was diagnoised July, 2009, he went to see Jesus Feb. 17, 2010. I know I had him longer than you, the sadness is overwhelming. Our doctor never even told us it was stage 4. He sent a different doctor to tell us he needed to move to hospice. I don't remember a lot about those days, we had stayed a month in the hospital, and 27 hours at hospice. I am still in therapy, I have clinical depression, I go once a week. I also go to hospice group, it's not even the same hospice, this is the one my Mom used 9 months later. They for the most understand, most have been thru it. I still cry every night, and on medication, that's just to get me through the day. My therapist yesterday did say, she could see some changes, that I'm thinking about me at least a little.