Hello there Miles. I am sorry we have to meet under these conditions, but everyone's paths cross for a reason. I will not bore you with all of the details of my story, but if you keep scrolling under the intro section of the discussion board, you will find my story listed under "My insprirational story". I posted it months ago, so you'll have to go thru a few pages. First of all, you are only a "goner" if you believe you are. I had successful surgery 8 mos ago and am alive and well. Yes, CC is a very rare and difficult type of cancer. I was lucky enough to find the only dr in the world who performs a surgery known as ex-vivo. I believe I was the 6th patient to undergo this type of surgery. Most cases of CC are inoperable, although there are many who have successfully underwent surgery. I am one of those cases. The miracle man, Dr. Tomoaki Kato, was brave enough to tackle my case. He is located at Columbia/Presbyterian Medical Center in NY. You may want to google him. I had undergone chemo, but failed the treatment of Cisplatin and Gemzaar. I was told by many physicians that my tumor was inoperable and there wasn't much else left for me. Once again, I was lucky to find Dr. Kato, but it was because of my refusal to listen to anyone and my never ending determination that led me to him. I wish I had the perfect words to say to you, but unfortunately I don't. All I can tell you is to keep searching for someone who will fight this fight with you. Too many drs and patients give up at the starting line. Please don't do this. We all have a power deep within that can conquer anything. If you steer the wheel in the direction you want to go, you will get there. My belief, along with Dr. Kato's is that nothing is impossible. You must try every drug, surgery, etc. until you conquer this. Of course, any cancer that has advanced never "looks good" but there are many survivors who have been told to get their affairs in order and are alive and well today. Don't think of this in terms of statistics. If I did that, I wouldn't be alive today. Tell yourself that you will beat this and keep the focus. When you hear all the negativity that accompanies this disease, you can very easily start to give up. Once again, please don't do this. You are fighting for your life, so fight with every ounce of power you have. Time is of the essence with CC, so begin your fight right now. Do some research on drs and then go out & find one that has the most courage and intelligence that you can. With the right treatment, you can not only prolong your life, but actually beat this. Please keep me posted on your pursuit, and do not hesitate to call upon me if you should need anything. My email is email@example.com. Email me any time. I will keep you in my prayers. I have just designed a pendant for cancer patients which says: This C will never defeat me. They are words I live by....for cancer will not defeat my spirit or my hopes & dreams. I hope you won't let it defeat yours either. Your fight is my fight and I would be more than happy to help you along this journey. Anything is possible my friend. Never give up!!!