My baptism was this morning... Very moving! My pastor asked me to give a "what led me here" speech. I spent about 4 or 5 hours on it... Did the speech to myself, changed it, etc... Got up there this morning and didn't want to give that speech. It didn't say enough. So I winged it! (Thank God for karaoke! Who can say that?) my impromptu speech was much better than the one I had prepared. I had everyone crying, then laughing as I told of my journey through finding religion, God and how my cancer journey is intertwined...
2 Yesterday 21:35:43
Re: Update on Lauren (16 replies, posted in General Discussion)
I've been praying hard for Lauren to get thru this. I posted on her fb page that last night as I prayed, I pictured Lauren while I prayed for her and a white glow surrounded her. I believe that God told me she will be okay. She has been put in his white light!!
3 Fri, 17 May 2013 09:23:13
Re: Lauren's 2nd Surgery News (38 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Sending lots of prayers!!
4 Thu, 16 May 2013 17:14:36
Re: Starting SBRT Thursday, 5/2 (76 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Mary, keep fighting! Don't listen to them! Remember, they told me last April to put my affairs in order and I'm still here.
I'm praying you get some good news: you deserve a break.
If you pray, read this. I was told to quit asking. I was told to thank God that something will go well. So when I pray I say "God, thank you for giving the doctors the knowledge and skill to get the drains or stents successfully placed so Mary gets some relief and thank you for allowing her to get the chemo to save her life!"
Marion: I am in Phase Ib of the trial. Fifty or so people have taken the drug. Toxicity levels were pretty much established. Side effects have been noted. Of course, that's a small population. But the tingling is better since I limited my liquid intake. Still more swollen in am, but at least they aren't talking to me at night.
5 Thu, 16 May 2013 16:57:41
Re: Lauren's 2nd Surgery News (38 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Great news! I'm following on Facebook!! How are things today? I hope you post something tonight because we are ALL waiting to hear!!
Thank God for his blessings!!
6 Tue, 14 May 2013 11:42:39
Re: Lauren's Surgery (122 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Praying and thanking God for the successful surgery!! I have everything crossed for extra backup! I am so excited for Lauren! I wish I could be there with you.
Love, prayers and hugs!!
7 Mon, 13 May 2013 14:07:10
Re: Cannot believe how we've been treated (11 replies, posted in Chemotherapy)
Thank you. I hope you are happy with your decision. Sloan does have many well known cc oncs. But I will repeat my concerns for Dr. Kemeny. She is not warm, nor will she spend time with you. She is brilliant, but I needed to feel my onc was on my side, and I did not get that. I will recommend Dr. Fong if you need a surgeon. After the cancer shrinks and dies from treatment, that is. Keep positive: it is important!
8 Mon, 13 May 2013 13:52:24
Re: Husbands ct results (10 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Michele,
Fingers crossed for the PET scan!
I don't know what kind of insurance you have, but it's hard getting approval with Aetna. PETs are not approved for cc patients! I don't make the rules: I'm trying to break them! I had to fight like crazy to get a PET approved. Among other things, like care... New onc....
Maybe that is one reason your onc has not asked for one? He may know it won't be approved anyway. And it's tough to get those insurance guys to change their minds.
9 Mon, 13 May 2013 09:33:50
Re: Cannot believe how we've been treated (11 replies, posted in Chemotherapy)
I have been inoperable since the beginning. Stage IV. I think it's extra hepatic. I always forget that.
My first onc and surgeon were from Abington near me. When I heard CC I went to Sloan. Dr. Yuman Fong at Sloan is wonderful. I absolutely love him. He speaks to you, not AT you, if you know what I mean. Great guy. In Jan. 2012 we thought I could get a resection... The tumor has been wrapped around my vena cava. He thought it might be possible to get it out and oblate the cells that would be left. He was very sure it would be good results. BUT then it spread to my lymph nodes again while we waited for a lung infection to clear. I had a portal vein embolization to start to kill off the left side of my liver and grow the right side. Unfortunately they nicked my lung. By the time that was clear enough, the lymph nodes had grown again and were wrapped around too many organs. I was told I was very sick. We tried SBRT (at Fox Chase) and it worked, then a new node popped up. All radiated nodes are stable and showing necrosis.
My onc, Dr. Nancy Kemeny, has been very detached. I ask questions and might get half of an answer. She frustrated me to no end. But her reputation is amazing. She is brilliant. So I stuck with her. And I miss her assistants. They were great.
When the latest node popped up I asked about choices, trials, etc. her answer was to check out any clinical trials and do my own research. I asked if there were any at sloan and got no response. So I called fox chase. They have a clinical trial which I Entered. I love Crystal Denlinger, my new onc. She discusses any questions I have. I feel we all need someone like that. And my rad onc, Joshua Meyer, is great! All the staff so far are wonderful. Every one of them seems to enjoy their job and seems to want to help.
So to answer your question, there are good and bad at both. Sloan is better known, and Dr. Fong is wonderful. Bad point: Dr. K. Sloan is also willing to consult with a closer onc for your treatment, if you can find one you like. And they have the Basking Ridge satellite office for scans, etc.
Fox Chase: not as well known yet. But 40 clinical trials, 1 aimed at cc. And great doctors and staff. Oh, and easier to get to! I don't know if Fox Chase will consult with a closer onc. They are 20 min. from my house: another plus for me.
Good luck with your decision. They are both great places and I am still here because of dr. K so she can't be all THAT bad!! I just need a little personality and hers is lacking.
If you do decide to go to SK, it's also easy on the train. Jump on a line to NY Penn Station, then take the E subway to 53rd and Lex. It's right there.
10 Sun, 12 May 2013 13:41:35
Re: Cannot believe how we've been treated (11 replies, posted in Chemotherapy)
Have you looked at Fox Chase in Philadelphia? I realize its a bit of a drive but I like it there. Just changed to them from Sloan Kettering. So far, everyone I have met is compassionate and seems to enjoy helping others.
I used to make day trips to NY to Sloan Kettering. They are a great hospital and have a satellite office in Basking Ridge. The only thing I will say is I do not recommend Dr. Nancy Kemeny, unless you don't care if you are treated by someone who doesn't seem to care. I stuck with her for 2 years because she is brilliant, but finally gave up and am so happy I made the change.
11 Sun, 12 May 2013 02:13:46
Re: Starting SBRT Thursday, 5/2 (76 replies, posted in General Discussion)
So far so good. My hands are feeling bloated and sore/tingly but they say it isn't a side effect... Hope it goes away soon or I'm gonna have to say it is a side effect!
But that's my only complaint so I won't complain. June 17 is the big day when I find out how well it's working. Thanks for asking: you have enough to worry about!
I'm accompanying a friend to B.R. In June for a pre hospital cert for her... Maybe you will feel up to visiting for lunch at Panera or somewhere close. Need to find out specifics. And not be working... Looking for a part time job now.
Have a good Mother's Day. And keeping you in my prayers for your last radiation to go thru and for it to stop the progression and do some damage to those $&!!! Cancer cells! I'll try to send my troll to visit: he stopped by the other day to eat some cancer! His favorite treat!
12 Sat, 11 May 2013 10:00:27
Re: Starting SBRT Thursday, 5/2 (76 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Mary,
You have been thru a lot lately!
I pray you feel well enough to enjoy Mother's Day. Get one last treatment in and then let the docs do what is best for you. I hope the radiation begins to work fairly quickly so you can get start to feel better.
Hugs and strength to you!
13 Fri, 10 May 2013 12:56:28
Re: I might be getting a new liver...and SOON! (25 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Tiff:
Excellent news!! I am SSSSOOOOOOOOO excited for you!! No worries: God brought you here!! You just have to BELIEVE!
I can't wait to hear the great news!!!!
You have been in my prayers every night: now I'm changing them!! "Thank you God for getting Tiff where she is! And thanks for the successful transplant!!"
Love ya!! And LOTS of cyber hugs!!
14 Tue, 07 May 2013 16:25:06
Re: Starting SBRT Thursday, 5/2 (76 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Mary,
I am sorry to hear things are not going well. I had so hoped you would find some relief and start to feel better. Ugh! I hate this cancer!
I'm praying that your docs have the knowledge and skill to help you feel better soon.
15 Sat, 04 May 2013 08:14:49
Re: Starting SBRT Thursday, 5/2 (76 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Mary,
I had no issues. But they didn't implant anything either. And I had my SBRT at Fox Chase in case... I wanted to be closer to home.
16 Fri, 03 May 2013 22:31:54
Re: 37 year old male diagnosed with stage 4 CC - welcoming any advice (35 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Jason,
Gem/Ox will eventually cause neuropathy. Make sure you have warm socks, gloves, possibly a scarf handy. Your onc should tell you this, but... Don't drink cold beverages until your throat can handle it. For me it was about 4 days. Good thing I don't mind room temp liquids! And you will possibly have nausea. My second round I felt nauseous. I used the meds to control it but fought it for a couple of days. By the 4th treatment, I just let it go. 4 hours after treatment, I felt so much better after! And didn't have to fight it for days!
It is much easier on the other organs than cisplatin. Sloan Kettering uses it before cisplatin now.
I also have Dr. Fong at Sloan, and he is wonderful! I wish I had been able to see how well the resection went, but I was inoperable for the first year. Then he thought he could try it... But before my surgery, it spread so surgery was out.
There are a number of clinical trials that you might be able to participate in, too.
17 Fri, 03 May 2013 14:09:05
Topic: Baptism in New Church (11 replies, posted in Members' Cafe)
So, many of you know I started going to church 3 years ago, about 8 months before my diagnosis.
In March, I finally figured out that no matter how I fought, God had a plan for me all along. So... I am getting baptized in the New Church. I was raised Lutheran, and have been baptized, but I feel that this is MY choice... To let Him know that I choose Him. And that I've given it up to Him. It's His will, and I'm trying not to worry about it anymore.
It's going to be May 19 at the end of the service.
18 Fri, 03 May 2013 14:03:33
Re: 37 year old male diagnosed with stage 4 CC - welcoming any advice (35 replies, posted in General Discussion)
Jason,
Sorry you have to be here. It sucks, plain and simple.
I went for a second opinion and stayed with them for 2 years. After 2 years, I started to feel my onc didn't really care about me... Just statistics, etc. so I went for a 3rd opinion 2 years into this fight. I am now being treated by a new onc, closer to home, and feeling this is where I am supposed to be.
Don't ever hesitate to get another opinion if you don't like what you hear, or feel your onc is not listening to you...it's your life, after all.
Many prayers for you...
19 Fri, 03 May 2013 13:57:32
Re: Announcement: I will be gone May 22 - June 6th (22 replies, posted in Members' Cafe)
I would offer to swing by and get you, too, but I think you will be a busy momma!! I wish I could see you all this time through but I'll settle for knowing Lauren's tired and sore from her surgery!!
20 Fri, 03 May 2013 13:01:03
Re: Starting SBRT Thursday, 5/2 (76 replies, posted in General Discussion)
I'm sorry Mary.
I hope you can get through the SBRT, too.
Praying you feel better soon!
21 Fri, 03 May 2013 08:55:39
Re: Announcement: I will be gone May 22 - June 6th (22 replies, posted in Members' Cafe)
Lisa: I'll swing by on the way and kidnap you!
22 Fri, 03 May 2013 01:00:26
Re: Found Another Song by the Same Group (1 replies, posted in Members' Cafe)
I love this song. Okay, I will learn it in case we go to karaoke when I'm visiting.....
23 Fri, 03 May 2013 00:59:10
Re: Announcement: I will be gone May 22 - June 6th (22 replies, posted in Members' Cafe)
Aaaawwwwww!!!!
24 Fri, 03 May 2013 00:23:37
Re: Announcement: I will be gone May 22 - June 6th (22 replies, posted in Members' Cafe)
Karaoke!! Gee, I don't know anyone who does karaoke!! ![]()
I hope you had as much fun as I do singing!
And I have a car, and am trying to decide if I want to ride that far or just be "safe" and take the cage. I WANT to ride that far! But if the temps or rain are not favorable I will definitely drive. I have had my fill of riding in the rain. Not fun!
I called my friend in Ohio. Pam, it's Lorraine: she got married and moved a few miles to the Ohio side of the line... I can stay there a day or two then go meet Lainy!! It sounds like fun! Don't forget your book of Teddy visits... I want to read it! We can compare stories, although you have many more than I do. I may have to do 29-31 May. I'm not sure if I have to be back Mon. and Lorraine would kill me if I don't spend at least all day Sat. with her!
And I'm glad your med tweaking seems to be going well!
25 Thu, 02 May 2013 12:12:56
Re: Treatment Cycles (11 replies, posted in Chemotherapy)
Crissie:
There is no expiration date the doctors can see. They are going on statistics. One year ago I was told I should be very sick and to put my affairs in order. I still feel fine a year after I was told that. I refuse to believe them! A positive attitude is the most important thing. And being proactive.