I haven't been around here lately. I just wish I had more to contribute. I know when my mother was going through this all I wanted for her was success stories...and they are out there.
Well, today, in fact, 20 minutes ago my mom passed. It has been a tough year. My mind was taken off my mothers death, by my daughters depression. Good news though, my daughter is finally back home and doing great.
Can't believe it has been a year. In the beginning I had many messages from mom, especially when I have needed them. Not so much anymore. However, just a few weeks ago, I had a dream and she was telling me about the new bedroom furniture she just got and that Canada was just beautiful. I do keep a list of these dreams on my phone that way when I need, what I call a mommy message, I am able to go back and reread the dreams.
Isn't it amazing, no matter how old we are, we will always still need our momma. That was the hardest part for my mother to leave. When all her friends asked her how was she going to leave her grand daughter...my mom always said, she will be fine, she has a mother who will be there to take care of her. However, I am having a hard time leaving Michelle, alone without a mother.
Hugs to all of you that are going through this process also and thank you for allowing me to vent.