Thank you everyone.  We are coming up on her 2 year anniversary of when she left us.  I'm having a hard time with it.  It's been very difficult without her and I can't stop thinking what this time 2 years ago was like.  Seeing her wither away was so painful.

I miss her terribly...

Thank you Clare.  She was something special and my muse.  I will miss her always...


I have not been able to download an avatar. I certainly can't do it through my I-Phone. Wish it were more user friendly. I would love to share my beautiful grandmother's picture with all.


I'm praying for your and your father.  I'm so very sorry for your loss. I just lost my beautiful grandmother 2 weeks ago.  I can barely breathe.  I know what you are going through.  I hope that one day, your memories of better times will bring you and your father comfort.

God bless you,


She was like a mother to me. She was my muse. She was in my life for 40 years and then CC came in and stole her away from us all, leaving us all empty, lost and devastated.  I am completely emersed in this overpowering grief and sorrow.  It's been two weeks since I last saw her, since CC took her away.  The vision of her lifeless body and face will never escape my memory.  All the beautiful memories, pictures and videos do nothing to console me, in fact, they make me feel worse.  A reality of what I will never have again.  She was everything.  Oh how I long to hear her sweet voice again, hug and kiss her.  I wish we could sit and laugh as we used to. Wish I could hear her wise advice once again. I'm so lost.  I miss her more and more with each passing day. Oh Lord please help me through this darkest hour of my life...

I miss you grandma, I miss you every single day. R.I.P.

Lucia Eloisa Martinez
12/13/1933 - 9/11/2013

My beautiful grandmother lost her battle with CC two weeks ago (9/11/13).  She LOVED bingo and we are setting up a tricky tray/bingo event the day after what would have been her 80th birthday.  Any ideas or suggestions is welcomed.  I am new to this, but I want to be an advocate, raise money and awareness.  I loved her dearly and watching her suffer through this horrible disease was extremely painful. I will look to do this December 14, 2013 in the NY/NJ area.  Any suggestions are greately appreciated.

Have a blessed weekend.


Thank you Darla and Lainy, your beautiful words bring me comfort during this very painful time.

God bless you both.


Thank you all for your kind words.  Her memorial was last Saturday.  It all seems surreal.  I miss her more with each passing day, she wanted to beat it, I had faith and hope that she would.  But at the end, it was just too big of a fight.  Thank you and God bless all of you.



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I am praying for you and your family.  I am so sorry to hear about Patrick. I just watched my beloved grandmother die from this horrid illness.  I am so sorry for your loss and the pain you are feeling from losing your husband.

United in prayer,



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Dearest Tammy:

I am so sorry for your loss.  I just lost my beloved grandmother two weeks ago.  I wish I had words, but no words could comfort this tremendous pain. He left too soon.  God only takes the best.  I hope that your many memories will provide some sort of comfort to you during this painful and difficult time.

God bless you and your family.


I have been a member since November, 2011.  My beautiful grandmother was diagnosed in October, 2011.  Lucia Eloisa Martinez.  That was her name.  She no longer walks this earth because cholangiocarcinoma invaded her body and claimed her life on September 11, 2013, on my son's 14th birthday.  She defeated the odds in so many ways, and I am forever grateful for all she got to see after her diagnosis, but I will never accept the way in which her life was stolen from her.  She had a desire to live and was so full of life, she was much more livlier than any 21 year old, had so much more to see and do, but it just wouldn't be.  She fought hard and valiant and now she rests in heaven.  My pain will never go away.  She was an amazing woman and I am blessed and grateful for having her in my life for 40 years.  Now I have to figure out how to live my life without her.  God bless you always my queen, I will honor you all the days of my life.  Thank you for being you abuelita.  You will live on in my heart forever.  Until we meet again, Rest In Eternal Peace...


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Dearest Kathy:

I am so very sorry for your loss.  My beloved grandmother passed away two weeks ago on September 11, 2013, also at home with all of us by her side.  I know the pain that you are feeling and there really aren't any words.  I am praying for you and your family during this very difficult and painful time.

Sending you hugs,


Praying for you Shari.  We are all pulling for ya.  Stay positive. Stay strong.

United in prayers and hope,


Last time I was on here was in July.  On August 13 the doctors told us there was no more they could do for her.  She wanted desparately to make it.  Even after being told there was no more they could do.  They told us on that fateful August day that it would be less than a month.  Hospice came and set up at my mother's home and we watched her disappear before our very eyes.  I will never be the same. I will never forget her.  She lost her battle two weeks ago on September 11, 2013.  I miss her more and more every day.  Thank you all for your prayers and your support.  If it wasn't for cholangiocarcinoma, she would still be here, so full of life.  Cholangiocarcinoma has robbed us of so much.

I pray for all of you, every day.

God bless you.


Hi everyone. I haven't been on in a while.  My grandmother is still battling.  Recently they had to switch up her chemo the Gem and Cisplatin weren't working on her anymore.  This new chemo has knocked her out. She's lost all her hair and a ton of weight.  Today we go to the oncologist for a follow up.  To see if she will continue to get chemo.  Tumor markers show that tumor activity is up and as such, if they stop chemo, I know what will happen next. I'm devastated and lost right now.  I'm praying for everyone. Thank you for listening...


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Hi friends.  I haven't been on for some time.  However, I have been praying for everyone and think about all of you often.  Abuelita is still battling CC.  She has done remarkably well. I still go through so many different emotions, anger, rage, confusion, sadness -- deep sadness.  I try not to read too much on the CC subject, it is so depressing.  Abuelita's tumor markers were very low and she has been doing amazingly well on her chemo.  The doctor stopped her chemo as she has had about 9 rounds of chemo and will now do a CT or Pet scan to see how she is doing.  Results are on May 18.  Please pray for her, pray for our strength.  It's a miracle, she's in no pain, she's laughing, joking and in wonderful spirits.  But CC is evil and powerful and the truth of the matter is, that she is 78 years old.   But her will to live is a mighty strong one and she says she will win this battle.  She feels cured already she says. Bless her soul.  She's my rock, my inspiration, my everything, she is loved by many and while I understand that we all will pass on, I can't bear to think of life without her. 

Anyway, everyone is in my prayers, have been since day one.

Please pray for Lucia Martinez, my beautiful and amazing abuelita...

Thank you so much friends. On my way to NY Presb. I feel nervous as I always do when it comes to my grandmother and CC. I will record everything on my IPhone. I get to the point where I can't even write! She means the world to me. Please pray for my strength and that I ask the right questions.

Thank you so much...

Happy Thanksgiving to my new friends...

Please keep us posted.  Sending prayers and hope your way.  I believe in miracles and hope lives here.  Don't ever loose hope.


Byron I agree totally with you. I guess it all depends on the person. Everyone is different and howo they react to certain treatments is different. Sometimes, it's easy to get discouraged with all the conflicting information and views.  Thanks for that Byron.


Nancy you made my day! There is hope! God bless you and have a very Happy Thanksgiving.  What wonderful news! smile)))

What types of questions should I ask? I would deeply appreciate any suggestions.  Thank you so much.

Thank you guys for the suggestions. I guess everyone is different. I think we have to treat this with traditional meds but also alternative and holistic, I am reading up on this and it does help. We have to keep our immune systems strong.

I appreciate your posts. Thank you so much. So grateful for all of you...

You guys are so amazing and fantastic, thank you thank you thank you for that. This whole week, I have been sick thinking this cancer is spreading like crazy because she has only had one treatment. Tomorrow we go for a check up and a second opinion.

Patty my grandmother is 77 and is in otherwise excellent health. She was very active and loved to dance and more energetic than me! Until this happened. She's the light of my life and so many other lives. I refuse to let her go. She is hopeful and very positive and so am I.

Thank you so much all of you, from the bottom of my heart. You guys are the best!



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Dear Debbie:

I am so sorry for your loss.  Thank you for sharing your story with us.  I hope that you find comfort in your children and the many wonderful memories with Ric before this horrible disease took over.  My prayers are with you and your family.

God Bless you.