I haven't been on this site for a while. My mom has been gone almost a year now. We had 6 months from her getting sick (we had no idea she was sick until the jaundice started) until she died. Things happened so quickly that we
never had a chance to really soak in what was happening.
Reading this post was like I had written it myself. I also find myself watching the dvd, in my mind, of the last couple of days. I have the same questions about if we did everything we could for her? Was she scared at the end?
The "firsts" have been hard (first Mother's Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas) and with the first anniversary approaching I am visiting those last days more frequently.
I am very relived to hear that I am not the only one that asks the questions and I am looking forward to the day when once again seeing her picture or hearing her name will do nothing but make me smile.