Thanks for the reply, Lainy I moved to Houston to be close with her last year. I did get your email and thank you for sending it to me. It is just such a sad sad state to be in, the catathers gave her so much grief. I tried flushing it but nothing helps. She is in such a delicate situation, I can't help myself and have to wake her up so she can eat a small amount of fruit or two spoons of oatmeal. I don't know if I am doing her harm ,but to just let her sleep without any water or food seems barbaric.
I know what life will be like now, she is my best friend, my confidant, the other half of my heart. It was already shattered three years ago but now it feels numb. I'm so sorry for any one on this board that has to go through this life shattering ordeal. In the end, I know I gave my 200% and I will always miss that smile she gave me when I walked in the house/room to see her. I know I brought joy to her life and always made sure she was always cracking up to my silly jokes and well taken care of in every aspect of her life.
I'm having trouble sleeping, I wake up hearing her voice, saying she's tired of the pain. Please keep in mind she is no longer in pain but had a really rough 3 years because of the two biliary catahers.
She never wanted to be a burden on anyone, and I made sure and assured her that she was not one to me, I'm honored to have had her for a mother. She has always been a kind hearted, soft spoken woman & her life is an example of how I will want to continue my empty & sad life now. Please keep her in your prayers.
Thanks again, I will continue to change her dressings, the leak will definitely not go away on its own. We were always booked in for an exchange once a month. I think it would be a disaster to put her through that ordeal.