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(8 replies, posted in Introductions!)

Hi Gros2014
I really hope all is successful for your mum and sorry you had to come to this site, but as you did, it's the best source of info to help you.
  I too would  be interested to know more details of the nanokinfe procedure, particularly regarding your words "involvement of a major vessel."  Which vessel was involved?  I have lymph node involvement close to the aorta and have been told paliative chemo is all that can be offered ... always looking for other options.
Take care, my heart goes out to you and your mum.
Sandie
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(6 replies, posted in General Discussion)

I thought I would post an update.  Am an active reader but don't post too often.

I had my resection in January 2012 followed by adjuvant chemo and radio but in July 2013 a CT scan revealed recurrence involving two lymph nodes.  I completed six months gem/cis chemo which was tough to take but the results were good and bad.   Three more lymph nodes involved but 60% reduction ... as of May 2014 all five lymph nodes were below one cm.

It took two months to recover from chemo but I am not back to normal and thoroughly enjoying life.

I know that there will be growth in the lymph nodes and that there is only a certain amount of chemo one can tolerate, but for the time being life is good ... I fill it with laughter, fun and new achievements which keep me alive and hoping.

My message is don't give up on life ...enjoy what you have and love living.

Sandie
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(6 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Hello everyone

It's been sometime since I last posted.  I read the posts regularly and find it so sad whenever I see a another person diagnosed with this dreadful disease, but the support and care this site provides is invaluable.

I am now living back in the UK but miss life in France.

I have completed 6 months (8 cycles) Chemo - cisplatin/gemcitabine.  No major side effects but extremely tired throughout.  I did have problems with the steroids and had to stop taking them.  Latest scan showed 60% reduction in tumours which was totally unexpected but brilliant news.

So now looking  forward to a summer of fun and tumour stability.

Sandie
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Dear Surfer1
I had the portal vein embolisation procedure in November 2011 prior to a resection in january 2012.   It was carried out under general anaesthetic and was quick and totally painless.   Following the procedure, diet was important.  Eat lots of green and red vegetables, drink lots and generally eat as much as one can - little and often.    The liver uses up a lot of calories in the growing process and tiredness can be an issue.  My liver grew 24% in 3 weeks and feeding it helps.  Look up foods that stimulate liver growth on the Internet and just eat eat eat.
Thinking of you
Sandie
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(6 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Willow

Cc has appeared in lymph nodes very close to my aorta.  Surgery and radio are out if the question because of the location.  I am hoping chemo will reduce the size of the lymph nodes and if so, will have 6 sessions followed by six months off and then have another 6 sessions.  I have been told that no one has had more than 3 lots of chemo.  My oncologist told me on 14th July 2013 to expect 18/21 months.   I have taken several opinions and all are the same.   I have completed my first gem/cis cycle and so far I have tolerated it very well.  Constipation - easily solved.   Tiredness - easily solved.  Metallic taste - easily solved.

I am very positive but also very realistic.  Every day I do something new, achieve something and laugh and giggle.   I have a wonderful supportive network of friends and family and I secure in the knowledge that I know they will be there for when I really need them.  I am not afraid.   My deepest sadness is that I will not see my wonderful son live his life (he is 22).

Emotionally I am fine ... of course I have dark times (I call then my mascara and pillow days) but a giggle and a laugh always puts me back on top and I'm never short of them.  Everyone knows my situation and I discuss everything that is happening to my quite openly to anyone who asks or wishes to know.   I find that the easiest way to deal with it.  I avoid stress at all times.   For example, last time I had chemo it broke my heart to see my hair falling out (I have a mane of beautiful thick wavy hair).   If it falls out this time, I will shave it off and have fun choosing hats and scarves rather than be stressed at seeing it on the floor every day.

Maybe I sound cold, but I am far from that.  I believe I am being cared by angels and that there is a reason why this is happening to me.   I do not yet know that reason, but one day I will.

Thank you for remembering me.
With love Sandie
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(6 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Shot in the dark.   Has anyone who has been diagnosed with horrid cc been scratched by a cat prior to diagnosis?

I appreciate this is a crazy question, but just wonder if there maybe a link.  I was diagnosed in November 2011 and years (1988 I think) previously was diagnosed with 'cat scratch fever' having been scratched by a cat and had infected lymph nodes removed.

I am currently undergoing chemo and am looking for possible links between any cc diagnosed patients.

My days are numbered and I would do anything to try and find a link between sufferers that help in the future.

God bless you all
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(15 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Thank you all dearest friends, I am up for the battle, just awaiting a start date.  I am not frightened of the inevitable, just want to live life to full in the meantime and know I won't go down without a battle.   I think the chemo regime is going to be tough, but hey ho, when the tough gets tough, the tougher get going and I'm tough.   Have researched possible side effects and got into the system which I hope will support me through.

I just so wish no one had to go through this, but we are dealt the cards we are dealt and have to play the hand we have.

With love and appreciation
Sandie

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(15 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Let battle commence again.  I am so sorry to tell my caring cyber friends that cc has returned in my lymph nodes.  Scan have revealed that they have doubled in size in the last few months and possibly invited a few friends to the party.  In a few weeks I will start six months of Gem/Cis and hopefully the party will quieten down.  I am interested in side effects of Gem/Cis - had Xeloda before which left me extremely tired with red paws and a touch of chemo brain and flu.

Sandie
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(14 replies, posted in Introductions!)

Satchie

I'm sorry to hear of yet another case of cc.   I had a tumour which was 11 x 9 x 6cm and my resection was successful.

Good luck, I will keep you I my prayers for success.

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(8 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Good news Kris, I'm with you, keep smiling xxx

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(18 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Thank you special friends for your hugs, support and love, soooo much appreciated.   Scans and tests to follow, seeing my new super amazing prof again on the 15th October when decisions will be made ... or not ... hopefully lots of prayers and love will shrink tumours into insignificance.   Miracles do happen ... I know they can, I'm still here so ... BECAUSE I CAN.   Super positive, still giggling and still having loveable blonde moments xxxx

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(18 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Marion ... I'm now permanently in the UK and seeing a prof of onc tomorrow in Manchester (I'm praying for good news).

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(18 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Hi Jules

I'm happy to join any support group in the uk ... the more the merrier.

Sandie

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(25 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Good luck Kris, I am praying for you xxx

Thank you so much for your love, support and advice ... I have today told my one and only child at the age of 22.  How cruel this world is.   He is devastated, he lost his father to cancer.  I have found a support group that I hope will be able to guide him through his journey.  He is so strong and so loved and so lovable. My prayers and strength are for him.  Oh cruel world, at best please give me the strength to see him graduate from university and begin to fulfil his dreams.   Each day I am positive and laugh, my exterior is tough but those wretched tigers come at night.   x

My tears fall when I am alone .... not for me, for those who love me, I so don't want to cause any heartache and pain but no not how to avoid this.  I will keep you posted but it may be a while as I await my transferral.   Thank you so much my dearest friends xxx

Thank you so much for your thoughts, love support which are so very much appreciated.  At the moment I am aware that I have two tumours in the bottom of my stomach wall which I have been told are almost certainly inoperable due to the proximity of major blood vessels.  I am transferrring to a specialist in Manchester in the UK and await a meeting with the team to decide the best plan of attack.   Weapons are at the ready!

Lainy, I'll hold off on the job offer, too much work to do here!

God bless dearest friends and thank you for being there.
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I was free of the monster for 18 months ... but it has returned and the battle and the roller coaster ride start again.    I cry, I scream, I laugh, I smile .... I am still me ... I will not let it win.  Why me, why anyone, why does this monster invade our lives with no thought, care or discrimination?   It has no value, no meaning, it causes nothing but suffering and pain.  No words can explain the anger, the intense emotional pain, the deep fears or the sheer hatred for this monster that wants to control me.   Why why why?   I could explode into tiny pieces because I know this bar-steward will leave my dearest family and friends with pain that they so do not deserve.   Please pray for them, please pray for me to have the strength to keep laughing and giggling and pray that I will win another battle.

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(167 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Dearest Pam,

Heaven is a place where one day you will meet again all those who have made your world.   There are so many people who have admired and prayed for your darling Lauren and one day she will meet them because she was so special.
God will look after her for you.
My love and thoughts are with you.
Love Sandie
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(61 replies, posted in Introductions!)

Hello again and especially to Pat who wrote recently.   The mental side of recovery is as important as the physical and, as Pat so rightly said, having a positive attitude is important for one's well being.   I also think regular exercise, healthy eating and endless laughter are all in the melting pot to add up to a good recipe.  My own issues were exacerbated by the fact that my husband could not cope with my cancer and drunk heavily leaving me feeling very vulnerable and fragile  We are no longer together and I am having to rebuild a new life too.   Hey ho, these things are sent to try us!  So, another strategy I found was to create events for the future to look forward to .... next week, next month, ext year ... Whatever happens I feel so very lucky that I am even here to be able to contribute to this discussion.   I firmly believe God has plans for me and I have yet to fulfil those plans, which is why I am still here.
Love to you all
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Kris
Just wondering how just visit to rad onc went.  Praying for something good, you so deserve it.
Sandie
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(61 replies, posted in Introductions!)

Bob, I think you are right, sometimes a little scientific intervention is good.   I have seen my doctor again and we have reviewed my meds and with a few tweaks I am beginning to feel calmer, but appreciate there is some way to go.   Thank you Bob for your empathy.   Faith, you are so brave and I will be praying for and thinking of you.   You are amazing keeping down a job and coping with your cc journey.  love to you.  Sandie x

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(14 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Clare
I was so sorry to read about your sister.   You and her have being very brave throughout your journey. Gid bless you x
Sandie

I have always admired this site for many reasons, but for me I particularly appreciate the support and honesty it provides.   Now recovering from CC, I can say that I cherished the honesty, I knew where I stood and it allowed me to ask questions from a position of strength through knowledge and the experience of others.   Surgeons, oncologists and nursing staff are honest with patients and their families and I feel anyone reading the posts on this site can accept such honesty and believe that those readers are the very people who want such honesty.  They know that there is no magic cure hidden amongst these posts, they come to know that there is love, support and honesty.   I suspect that highlighting the fact that information may be of a sensitive nature may draw people to read such information.   How many times have we read posts that include a phrase along the lines of "I am so glad I found this site" yet have we ever read a post that says the opposite?   This site is an amazing source of information ... some information we want to read and some we don't ... but both become valuable in our quest for understanding.  i would advocate it continues to be that way
Sandie
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(10 replies, posted in General Discussion)

I so love you guys .... maybe we should write a record or have a worldwide CC jelly bean party or ..... xxx