I have not posted for some months now. My mum is declining quickly. She was admitted into hospital with a bowel obstruction just after Xmas. Her pain is always severe, she is bloated, swollen and just out of it. Her heart beat is irregular, oxygen levels low and runs a fever continuously. She has septicaemia and is being treated with three different types of antibiotics.
I know this might be a little selfish, but I cannot endure it no more. So how does she endure it?
Since July 2012, she has spent no more than 1 month at home. Most of the time she has been admitted with some sort of infection. Why does she get these damn infections continuously.
There was a slither of hope just before Xmas when Dr Zimmet said he was going to pursue other options in 2014. She felt good. I guess there aint any options now.
My sister spends all of her time with mum. She is strong, but breaks down each time i talk to her. My dad cries each day. My brother hides his feelings as best as he can.
Just need to vent. I feel so sorry for her as we cannot do anything for her. I don't want her to die, but I know she will find peace when she does.
So sorry for the rant.