Thank you again Lainy. Actually, Sophie is in no pain what-so-ever, otherwise, I would never let her suffer. In fact, she's responding well to the Chemo & Prednisone. A cat's age is different from a dog's age too, I'm sure you're aware of it. Sasha is also not suffering because he's responding well to all his medications and even plays. Very smart cat too. They're both Siamese Appplehead (not pointed) cats. Sasha is white with a gray face and has gorgeous blue eyes, but not as blue as when he was younger, and Sophie is a Seal Point color with beautiful blue eyes too. If they're comfortable, then I'm comfortable.
I'm glad if I can help someone else on this site by expressing my pain and accomplishments if any, but it's in my blood to be open and honest about what's going on in my life and my reactions. Thank you for the compliment and giving me some hope.
I miss my Mama and do listen to her recordings while she was hospitalized, once in a while as it's painful but at the same time great to hear her beautiful voice. But I have one video of her when she was healthy in her kitchen in Paris while she was cooking (she was the best cook in the world) and we were both going to fly together to Kansas. It was taken in 2006 which was the beginning of this disease but only noticeable because her stomach was a little big. She was looking forward to the trip, until she got here. Big difference between Paris and Kansas. But that wasn't just it...it was my partner's jealousy of my mother's relationship between us which was so strong, and as a result it seemed like my partner put a wedge between my Mama and I. So, I didn't spend as much time as I should have and I will regret that for the REST OF MY LIFE.
It happened both times she came here. I just wish I could make it up to her and want to see and be with her. I know that I will see her again. I speak to her sometimes in my mind sometimes out loud. She was just so special, and I could see her love for me in her gorgeous green eyes and how much she cared for me. She was so kind and generous to me, but my Aunt and her two evil adult children took advantage of her and just flew to Paris uninvited, and took up her studio for three months at a time. They were and still are, swimming in money and could have checked into a hotel which was literally smack next door, but no, they had to be free-loaders and they still are but with other people. My mother didn't want to say anything but after a month she would tell me that it was getting too much but didn't have the courage to say something. The cousins are so evil, that they didn't even ask me what I wanted to do with my mother's body after she passed away and just arranged to have her buried and made me pay 10K when I inherited a little money. My mother gave her 7K wedding ring to my cousin to cover the cost of her hospitalization plus they stole about 30-40,000 Euros. And now I can never visit her grave because she' sin Tehran, nor bring her remains back. How insensitive and evil of my cousins. My mother was a dual citizen and the State Department was unable to assist me because of their laws. My mother was Christian! I should stop as it's going to make me cry.
Thank you again Lainy for your support and I appreciate your understanding so much. It means a lot to me and gives me some hope. Yes, I should also say, "Thank you Mama for loving and caring for me all my life."
Thank you for sending me the list and I hope we keep in touch. I'm not really good at writing, but I will try my best to keep you updated. Due to my complicated grief, my memory is not good at all, so I become forgetful. If I repeat myself, it's because I forgot that I already told you.
Bless your heart----Desiree
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