Dear Desiree,
It seems that you are completely overwhelmed by the recent tragedy including losing your cat, dealing with loss of your dear mom, unemployment, handling your mom's estate, etc.  That is a lot for one person to deal with all at once.  When we feel overwhelmed, we feel unblanced and out of control..  I do agree with Randi, you need to call your physician and review your medication that are more effective for you so that you feel more balanced. 
I don't think we could ever get over the loss of someone as precious as a parent (s), child, or loved ones..  we move through stages..  do you have any other family members of close friends you can lean on at a time like this for moral support?   We have to take one day at a time...  I wish you best of luck finding a job soon.. I think it will help you getting in to the routine, being some what distracted from your sadness...  please take care of yourself.

big hugs to you,

Jeeyoung (I understand, Desiree what you are going through with losing your mom...  I lost my mom too with CC in May..)

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(45 replies, posted in Good News / What's Working)

Oh!  I'm so happy to hear such great news!  Keep up the good luck and savor this moment! And thank you for sharing, Nikki!

Jeeyoung

Percy,

I've read your updated case study and medical history up to date.  First of all, thank you so much for sharing in such detailed personal yet profoundly helpful information for others.  I have nothing but utmost respect for you with your knowledge, proactive attitude and fighting spirit.  Although I have much limited knowledge with this terrible disease due to very short personal experience with it, I am learning more and more each day from reading posts like yours on this site.  Best of luck with your second and third opinion on the future treatment to beat this beast!

Best regards,

Jeeyoung

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(18 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Dear pfox2100,

Good luck today!  I will have everything crossed for you!

Jeeyoung

Hi Moonpie,
Welcome back.  I'm glad to hear that you were able to enjoy some time for yourself to reset, rejuvinate and to think things more cleary.  I think sometimes when we are in so deep, we can't really be effective.  This time away fueled your courage to have a heart-to heart talk with your parents.  I glad that happened for all of you.  Now that you are all on the same page, you can begin to make decisions for the best interest of your mom. 
About you dad, I wonder if being overly positive was his way to cope with this terrible thing with your mom.  He may not intended to be deceiving and dishonest but maybe perhaps he is so terrified.  Anyway, it sounds like your mom is in hands of great care.  I wish the best results and outcome from her treatments.

Thinking of you,

Jeeyoung

Tiff,

Congratulations on great recovery!  Enjoy your day with Brian at the beach on Friday!  That sounds like a wonderful plan.

Jeeyoung

Hi Santineerp,
I'm very sorry for losing your husband, Phil with this horrible disease.  You and your boys are in my thoughts as I understand how hard it is to live your life without your loved one who moved on.  Take good care of yourself.

big hugs to you,

Jeeyoung

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(8 replies, posted in Good News / What's Working)

Crissie,

Great news for your dad and your family!  Please keep us posted.  Good luck on rest of his treatments.

Jeeyoung

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(8 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Pattimelt,
I'm sorry to hear about your latest news on the progress of your treatments.  I can imagine how disappointed you are to hear it.  But I do remember a lot of members who have been fighting this disease said that this is like a rollercoaster ride.  There are ups and downs and surprises in store.  I hope this is one of those downs till your next ups!  Best of luck to you on qualifying for a clinical trial.  I'm also sending you loads of hope and positive thoughts your way.

Hugs,

Jeeyoung

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(19 replies, posted in Members' Cafe)

Lainy,

Beautiful!  Happy Anniversary! Do you have a date with your grandson?  ah...  that is so sweet..  Have a great night!

Jeeyoung

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(10 replies, posted in Introductions!)

Hi Erika,
I think you will be glad that you have found this group of wonderful people who are supportive, knowledgable and also going through the same thing.  I'm sorry that you had a reason to seek a group like this.. and you are so very young.  But I think you have the right attitude.  You already have gone through a lot and seems that you are responding well with your treatments as well.  I was told that Cancer is a family disease.. it affects everyone arounds you.. it is great that you have co-patient team.  What I've learned from this group is the importance of second, third and even fourth opinions!  Have you seek another opinion? 
Wishing you great sucess with all your treatments and keep us posted on your progress.

Hugs,

Jeeyoung

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(9 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Tiff,

Glad to hear that you are in the comfort of your home.  Take good care of yourself!  Wish you a smooth and quick recovery and continue sucess in the follow up. 

Hugs to you!

Jeeyoung

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(26 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Pam,
I'm glad you posted and let out your broken heart.. I can't even imagine the pain that you must feel losing your loving daughter.  I can feel your pain in your words and my heart break for you.  I think sometimes it is hard to express your sorrow to people who are very close to you.. You are probably thinking about the other person's feelings etc.  I hope that you can come to this place whenever you need to share and express your grief...  Please take care yourself and know that we are here for you.

Lots of love and big hugs to you.

Jeeyoung

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(4 replies, posted in In Remembrance)

Lainy and Angie,
I would love to get together with you both.  I think that would be very nice as I absolutely loved meeting Lainy in person.  Angie,  please let plus know if you would like to get together.

Jeeyoung

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(41 replies, posted in Introductions!)

Heather,

You husband and your family are in my thoughts today.  best of luck on reducing the WBC count for Gordon.  I hope that you are getting some support from your family and friends during this tyring time...   keep us posted.

Hugs,
Jeeyoung

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(4 replies, posted in In Remembrance)

Angie,
I'm very sorry to hear about your father's passing 4 months ago... I too have lost my mom two months ago today with CC.  I understand what you are going through... you must have been really close to you dad like I was with my mom.  I think your dad's birthday party sounds lovely.  I know it will be hard without his physical presence especially this being the first birthday after his departure.  I hope you and your family share some great fun memories of him.  He will be there I'm sure!  I also cry in the shower and/or in the car when I'm alone...  I don't think there is any other way to grieve for loss of someone you love so dearly...  there will always this void in our hearts because no one can fill that void.  I do think eventually and hopefully our heart will be filled with all those wonderful memories more... 

Please know that there are many of us going through the same thing here.. like you and I.. feel free to drop by.

Take care,

Jeeyoung

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(11 replies, posted in Good News / What's Working)

Kris!

Great news!!!  Enjoy every little or big victory along the way!  Have a super duper day!

jeeyoung

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(111 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Tom,
Wow!  That is an amazing news!  I'm so glad you share this story and very happy for you both. 

Jeeyoung

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(30 replies, posted in Grief Management)

Yes!  Of course things have to be worked out but if and when we are allowed to, I would love to be your partner in this.

Please count me in.

Jeeyoung

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(30 replies, posted in Grief Management)

Omg!  I missed all this!  I think it is a great idea to release balloons in honor of loved ones who left us... It really was lovely and I plan to do it again.  You can literally see the balloons lifting in the the sky as they float away into the sky above beyond your sight..  So beautifully symbolic!  Marion and Lainey!  I'm all yours!  Sign me up for this!

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(30 replies, posted in Grief Management)

Desiree,
Thank you very much for your supportive words and I'm truly sorry for the loss of your mother as well.  We are going through toughest time in our lives and and feeling profound pain.  My mom has been gone almost two months (tomorrow) and there isn't a day goes by that I don't think of her.  My sorrow comes in waves and can't predict what will trigger.  I'm moving through the days.. Some are easier than others.. Especially when I'm busy.  My family and work keeps me busy...they support me when I need them and I know in my eart that my mom is always here right beside me and she would not want me to fall apart.  She would want me to live my life to its fullest.  So I try each day with tears and all...I don't think we will ever get over our losses... We just move through each stage and hopefully eventually our hearts will be filled with beautiful memories of our moms instead of the last days of their lives...  I still talk about my mom as if she is still in this world...   Please if you ever want to talk or share your pain.. I will be here.

Take good care and what you are going through is normal...let yourself grieve for your loss... You will be Ok...eventually...

With my deepest sympathy,

Jeeyoung

Lainy,
I'm back from our trip to CA...  Hope you are feeling better.. Sorry to hear that you were not feeling so great.  I'm sure Teddy was there to let you know that he is watching over you. 

Take good care of yourself,

Jeeyoung

Percy,
Hang tough!  We are thinking positive thoughts and cheering fot you!

Jeeyoung

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(18 replies, posted in General Discussion)

Hi Tiff,
I'm thrilled to hear about your transplant surgery and your recovery process!  I wish you continuing success and recovery.  Thank you so much for keeping us up to date.

Jeeyoung

Percy,

Sending you positive thoughts and the best outcome possible for your upcoming treatments.  Thank you being so helpful to everyone on this board by sharing your own experience.  I hope you know what a gift that is...

Please keep us posted on your progress.. you are in my thoughts.

Jeeyoung