Topic: Remembering My Dad

Hello Everyone,

I have not posted for a while, I took a little trip (2 week trip ended in a 4 week trip) that was to be taken with my dad before he became very ill. I went to Mexico where my dad had just finished a beautiful home. I had much peace while I was there I did not want to leave the house! I know my dad was there!!!

Funny thing is I had a hysterectomy due to cancer in September 2012, right at the time that my dads CC came back, during this time I also had gallbladder surgery in November 2012....I have been a mess since physically and emotionally.  Im sure that going thru all we did with my dad didn't help at all....anyways what I'm getting at is that I have had so many issues with my stomach since gallbladder surgery not sure If i was better off dealing with it!!!!! The point is while I was visiting my dads house in Mexico I was sympton free!!!! Since I have returned back home I have been ready to go to ER several times....for gallbladder pain that I no longer have! Anyways.....

Well it will be 4 months since my dad passed on July 19....I miss him sooo much, how I wish I could have one more hug or hear his voice or even have one of his famous BBQ's in this 110 degree weather!!!!!  He was the rock of our family..... It will be his Birthday on July 31 he would have been 62. I plan to celebrate his birthday at my house and have my sisters and brother over and celebrate his life. Although I have to say it's been very difficult to see his pictures lately I get very sad and cry when no one can see me...


Thank you everyone for your ongoing support you have all truly become a part of my life. Even when I am not posting I am here hanging around!

Angie

Re: Remembering My Dad

Hello Angie, it is so good to see you and I am so very sorry for all you have been going through. That is so strange about your cancer surgery! The same thing happened to me. One year before Teddy passed I had surgery for a GIST Tumor. It is very rare and you don't know you have it until late. It was 10 CM and on the other side of the intestines I had a benign Mass that was 12 CM. I was too busy thinking about Teddy and his CC that I didn't give myself a thought and never have. In fact I go for my 6 month CT this Friday. There is no cure just remission and if it returns more surgery then a Chemo pill called Gleevac and its not pleasant. But now that I am almost at my 4th year of being clear, I only have 1 more year of CT's every 6 months. Then I think it's once a year. I do know where you are coming from as after T passed I got the Ulcerative Colitis and have been sick ever since. Now with this I do have my pity parties. They don't last long but I think we get more down because we go through these things alone so to speak. I wish Teddy was here, our 19th Anniversary would have been this Wed. and I think you would like to lean on your Dad as well.
On the Gall Bladder causing discomfort, had mine out and no problems but I know of people who have what you do. Have you talked to your Doc about it as there is a pill you can take to help balance things out. Sorry, cannot think of the name but I know someone will.
I just meet Jeeyoung and would still love to meet you! Please ask your Doc about this pill. I think it's some kind of digestive thing. No reason to be suffering!

Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.

Re: Remembering My Dad

Angie,
I'm very sorry to hear about your father's passing 4 months ago... I too have lost my mom two months ago today with CC.  I understand what you are going through... you must have been really close to you dad like I was with my mom.  I think your dad's birthday party sounds lovely.  I know it will be hard without his physical presence especially this being the first birthday after his departure.  I hope you and your family share some great fun memories of him.  He will be there I'm sure!  I also cry in the shower and/or in the car when I'm alone...  I don't think there is any other way to grieve for loss of someone you love so dearly...  there will always this void in our hearts because no one can fill that void.  I do think eventually and hopefully our heart will be filled with all those wonderful memories more... 

Please know that there are many of us going through the same thing here.. like you and I.. feel free to drop by.

Take care,

Jeeyoung

Re: Remembering My Dad

Jeeyoung, we should get together with Angie as she lives in Glendale. I talked with her once and she sounded like a lovely lady. She also has a Sister who posted a few times. I know you would all like each other as much as I like you all!

Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.

Re: Remembering My Dad

Lainy and Angie,
I would love to get together with you both.  I think that would be very nice as I absolutely loved meeting Lainy in person.  Angie,  please let plus know if you would like to get together.

Jeeyoung