Topic: Learning to live without her. My beautiful grandmother is gone...

She was like a mother to me. She was my muse. She was in my life for 40 years and then CC came in and stole her away from us all, leaving us all empty, lost and devastated.  I am completely emersed in this overpowering grief and sorrow.  It's been two weeks since I last saw her, since CC took her away.  The vision of her lifeless body and face will never escape my memory.  All the beautiful memories, pictures and videos do nothing to console me, in fact, they make me feel worse.  A reality of what I will never have again.  She was everything.  Oh how I long to hear her sweet voice again, hug and kiss her.  I wish we could sit and laugh as we used to. Wish I could hear her wise advice once again. I'm so lost.  I miss her more and more with each passing day. Oh Lord please help me through this darkest hour of my life...

I miss you grandma, I miss you every single day. R.I.P.

Lucia Eloisa Martinez
12/13/1933 - 9/11/2013

In loving memory of my beloved and cherished grandmother who fought until the very end. Loving you forever abuelita...

Re: Learning to live without her. My beautiful grandmother is gone...

I'm so sorry for your pain. sad

Trust in the Lord, and he will see you through this. I will pray for you.

~Tiffany~ 31 years young wink Fighting CC since 10-27-2011
Wife to Brian; Mommy to Carter (8) and Madison (4)
Liver transplant 7-9-2013

3 (edited by Darla Wed, 23 Oct 2013 08:47:03)

Re: Learning to live without her. My beautiful grandmother is gone...

Dear Elsy,

I have been thinking about you and wondering how you are doing.  I know exactly how you are feeling and what you are going through right now.   All I can tell you is that those feelings never really go away, but they will soften in time.  The good times will eventually out weigh the bad. 

It's often said that God does not give us more than we can handle so I am figuring he thinks we are all very strong.  smile

Just go with it and take it one day at a time. 

Love & Hugs,

"One Day At A Time"

All of my comments and suggestions are just my opinions and are not a substitute for professional medical advice.   You should always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health care providers.

Re: Learning to live without her. My beautiful grandmother is gone...

Dear Elsy, I am so sorry to read about your beloved Grandma. Like Darla said it takes time but the good will outweigh the bad memories and I am positive she would want to see you happy and smiling again. Please accept my condolences.

From a book of blessings called "Benedictus" by John O'Donohue - Irish Poet & Philosopher

When you lose someone you love,
Your life becomes strange,
The ground beneath you becomes fragile,
Your thoughts make your eyes unsure;
Your heart has grown heavy with loss.
And though this loss has wounded others too,
No one knows what has been taken from you
When the silence of absence deepens.
There are days when you wake up happy;
Again inside the fullness of life,
Days when you have your heart back,
You are able to function well
Until in the middle of work or encounter,
Suddenly with no warning,
You are ambushed by grief.
More than you, it knows its way
And will find the right time
To pull and pull the rope of grief
Until that coiled hill of tears
Has reduced to its last drop.
Gradually, you will learn acquaintance
With the invisible form of your departed;
And when the work of grief is done,
The wound of loss will heal
And you will have learned
And be able to enter the hearth
In your soul where your loved one
Has awaited your return
All the time.

Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.