Topic: Update on my husband
Not sure where to begin.
Well the last few weeks he's been really tired. The one week he didn't even feel like getting out of his chair. Experiencing more pain and appetite has been down. Of course tried getting him in to the doctor but he refused. Some of the things he will say to me are so hurtful. All I do is cry. Then the next day he will be fine and act like he never said anything to me.
So this past Friday was his doctors appointment. The doctor didn't like what she was seeing. She stopped his chemo. She said it has quit working. His tumor marker jumped 135 points this month and liver levels are on a steady rise. Plus he lost 7 pounds in 2 weeks. So Thursday he has to go in and have a pet scan followed with a ct scan. She thinks it has spread more.
I am scared to death. I see him slipping away from me. The worse part there's not a damn thing I can do about it. I get so angry! So angry that I am going out to buy a punching bag.
His family is no help. One minute that want to fight with him and then the minute they hear that things maybe getting worse they want to kiss ass. I bite my tongue with them people so much. Wish I could grab them and shake the crap out of them.
Oh the doctor even thought she was going to have to put him on meds for his pancreas. And of course I can't exactly remember quit what for. I seem so forgetful. The last I knew the cancer had spread to a few lymph nodes. Unless with all the symptoms she's thinking of something else. But she said she walks wait until we get results.
Sorry I just had to get all of this off my chest. I feel like I am going to burst sometimes. I hate cancer!
Prayers out to everyone,