My heart goes out to you in your valiant struggle. My Dad passed away from this illness in 2007, but I have read that many have lived and continue to live as new treatments appear.
Please try not to imagine what it will be like for your family. I remember the last Christmas with my Dad and we were in the hospital, no gifts, no tree, no lights- but, we had each other, my Dad, my mom and I. He had a meal prepared for him from the hospital staff, and my mom and I had turkey sandwiches we'd made. She had baked the same cake we'd always had at Christmas and it was accompanied by some sparkling non-alcoholic wine. We couldn't have had a better meal if we'd been eating at a five star restaurant.
We were together, with all the trappings of this life pared away. Snow was falling that evening, across the river we saw the Christmas trees alight from my Dad's window. My mom and I got the opportunity to give my Dad his final Christmas card with our love written in it, word by tearful word. And, you know what, it was our most precious Christmas ever.
Duke, none of us know the moment we are called home. If we're lucky, we have the opportunity to live each second to it's fullest. We have the opportunity to make memories for ourselves and for our loved ones. If we're especially fortunate, we have the chance to tell our loved ones exactly how we feel about them, how much we love them, how much of a difference they have made to us. I can tell you that those memories are what keep me going, day after day. I live to honour my Dad and I hope that when I get to hug him again, that those who remain here, honour me with kindness and are encouraged to go on with beautiful memories as well.
Please don't worry about your family. Maybe if you can think about special things, simple things, that you can all do to love each other this very second; to celebrate each and every second- even if it is just a simple celebration... those are the things that illuminate our hearts when darkness sometimes settles in, and those are the things that keep us going and moving towards the light.
I send you and your family the warmest wishes and the Brightest Blessings. God Bless you, Duke!