Topic: Caring wife wishful life!
My intro is a bit overwhelming. Exhausted with the fight of holding the tears here at hospice. The roller coaster of hope, dreams subsiding, and fear what's to come has me unable to eat much and not sleep. My anxiety meds far from meeting my needs. Being a 24/7 caregiver overwhelming task with no help till now has drained my energy. Only nervous energy left...I guess.
It seems such a cruel thing to happen to us. Engaged then next month diagnosed groom with liver/liver duct cancer. Wonder if the shock of it all will ever let up. Cheated is all I feel. Honored to be his wife. Proud of his courage suffering to hold on everyday. Very rarely leave his side. Scared of losing a second with him.
Besides, it took me 15 years after a bad divorce to find the absolute love of my life. Trust the Lord's strength will carry me the rest of the way whatever his will is. The heartbreak tough on me. Married less than a year. Super hard to bear. Pray for sharing memories to treasure for however long have please Lord.