Topic: Faith

Do you have faith in God?  Do you feel that your cancer has strengthened your faith or has it made you lose your faith?  Has your family gotten stronger in their faith or weaker?  Do you feel like God has provided for you and met your needs, or do you feel abandoned by God?

I'd really like to know what other cancer survivors and care givers think.  As for me, I am a devout Roman Catholic.  My faith has grown stronger since my diagnosis, and I feel closer and closer to God every day.  He has miraculously provided for my needs.  I have many people praying for me and so far I have been relatively healthy and been able to keep working.  I need to keep working because I am a single parent and need the money and insurance to provide for my family.

I have been blogging fight with cancer at caringbridge.org/visit/lisarockstad.  A lot of people have said to me that they enjoy my writings and that I inspire them.  My only hope is that somehow the Lord will use me to reach others and let them know of His mercy.

Please share your faith journey with us if you feel like it.  Thanks!

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I am a Buddhist and don't believe in God as such but I do have a deep belief that everything happens for a reason, and that some things are just beyond human understanding. I also belive that our thoughts, meditations, and good wishes do ripple out through the universe to change things. I have friends of many different religions, and it comforts me to know that I am being prayed for by Catholics, Muslims, Mormons, Baptists. For my part, I include these people when I practice metta meditation, wishing that they may all be well and happy and live in peace.

Since I first got sick, almost five years ago, I have spent a lot of time thinking deeply about my spirituality and trying to understand "why" things like cc happen. So it's not exactly faith, but this disease has definitely made me a more spiritual person.

Kristin

Peace, hope, and healing to all!

3 (edited by JeffG Fri, 16 May 2008 11:21:49)

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Hi Lisa... Here is kinda a philosophical answer to your question about faith: I definitely believe my experience with cancer has strengthen my spirituality in believing that we were created and the course of our lives has a dependence on a higher power.  I was raised to believe in God and that  Jesus Christ is our Savoir.  With that said this cancer has opened my  thinking to look even further and beyond and to look at all religions, powers, and universal energy.  It has brought me to ask for answers of the unknown.  The How, why, when; I keep coming up with the same answer no matter what angle I look at it.  What is meant to be will be, but we as individuals have the energy and power within ourselves to alter our life and destiny to a certain extent if we choose to do so. I'm at the point of acceptance of death if that is what we want to call it or to be born again.  Whatever is the end may be the eternity.  I'm in a challenge mode that wants me to support others, However I look at it and I see love for all and the only scary part is imagining the separation from others whether it is  temporary or forever.  So I make a choice in my mind for it to be temporary and press on for change and betterment of a new dawning when, how,and whatever that may be.  We will not out power the greatest of all powers. Is this God or Universal Energy, My inner most thoughts will continue to turn until it is.  Until then I will live together as a known person of the moment with God, Jesus, Friends, Loved ones and the whole world/universe/ and broader spectrum I choose to call it.  How I currently express my emotions and share with others is mostly inherited in the ongoing spin of evolution. what we call life is a continuous learning experience.  Do I have faith that I will be cured of this disease?  Yes, but I'll accept what is meant to be.  Hope is in the air and miracles do happen.  I feel I have experienced that to an extent to still be here in comparison to others who have been less unfortunate or am I really the unfortunate one.  The motivation and drive to continue my journey comes purely from my heart with the unseen but sensed energy of some kind.

God Bless/Power to all !
Jeff G.
P.S.  Do you think I would have gotten at least a B with a curve in my philosophy class ?  Ha! Surely I would have confused the professor.

Take it to the Limit,One More Time! (Eagles)

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Thank you for your responses.  I really appreciate them.  Jeff, I'm glad I didn't take philosophy courses because that would only confuse me smile  I have a very simple faith.  Basically my attitude towards this disease is "Father, let your will be done".

Blessings,
Lisa

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Hi Lisa! My husband and I believe and know beyond the shadow of a doubt that God is now and forever will be....before Lee got his diagnosis in Feb. of this year....his faith was "iffy"...he was definitely a believer, but would not surrender his life to Him...ya see, Lee is a control freak...and as long as he knows that he's in control over everything and I mean everything...his stress level was zero...and he was ok with life....it was no longer than a week after being in the hospital and undergoing four procedures with no success...he seemed to have let go and let God...it was super scary for us of course because he runs his own trucking business and I teach...and we found ourselves taking a leap of faith and letting God do the work for us...since than our community has come together and supported us in unbelievable ways...they raised $7,600 in four hours at a local restraunt, ourinsurance has paid every penny of every procedure including mileage and lodgeing to and from Minnesota, my school raised over $1000 in coins for us, our church has helped us finacially, emotionally and of course, spiritually, people we don't even know have sent us monetary donations in huge amounts, friends come and pull our weeds, "kindnap" me for a girls night out, I could literally go on forever in the ways that God has provided for us....and you cannot tell me it is because of anything else! God is working through these wonderful people and blessing them all at the same time.....it's not to say I don't ask why, or cry myself to sleep at night, or wonder if my prayers are bouncing off the ceiling, it's shortly after I start to wonder when a still small voice is whispering "I love you...I'm with you...and all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord." It's when you don't feel His presence is when I believe He is lifting you up, carrying you so you don't fall and stumble because we have already won the battle...Jesus did it for us...we are victorios every day because of Him.  Lee stood up in front of 300 people before we went to Minnesota and came back to start his chemo...never, and I mean never would I have thought my husband would stand up and give testimony in church to let everyone know about his wonderful Savior and how he changed his life forever.  To this day, Lee will tell you that if he got cancer in order to come to the Lord, then it was all worth it! Keep the faith! We will pray for your healing, strength, courage and peace!

Love, Heather

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Heather,

What an uplifting commentary!  I know what it is like to feel the Lord touch you and I so wish my husband could too.  I know it would make his journey with this horrid disease earier. 

Karen

Wishing all God's blessings!

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Karen....we will pray for your husband...all we have to do...and you too...is plant that seed...that's it...and He will do the rest...I waited almost 14 years for Lee to be where I am...I prayed and prayed and prayed for him...I came to realize...once again...it isn't about my timing and what needs to be done now for me...but it's all about God's timing and His will...He has never let us down and I know He will not let you down either...continue to pray and know that God loves your husband just like you...and He is patiently waiting for him to see that....until then...just know that we will be praying for you and God is much, much, bigger than all of this!

Love, Heather

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Heather,
Thank you for the prayers and words of encouragement.  Prayers coming your way for you and Lee, and for everyone who is dealing with this nightmare cancer.
Karen

Wishing all God's blessings!

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None of us can forsee God's plans for us.  We are each given our own cross to bear.  Dealing with that cross can refine us as gold, or break us.  I am too weak to carry that cross alone, so I give that cross over to Jesus and praise him still in the circumstances of my life.  I allow him to use this disease to refine my character and make me holy.  I allow him to use me as an example to others in my suffering and in my faith.  I know that the prayers of others has helped me and kept me steadfast.  I know that God is more real to me than ever before.  I don't think that I would have ever come to this place without having cancer.  Maybe, but this disease has accelerated my spiritual journey.  Facing death has a way of refining your thinking and making you see what is really important in life.

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Lisa.... In simple terms  I believe  "You are never alone if god lives in your heart"  God has said, " Never will I leave You; never will I forsake you."
Heb. 13:5   
P.S.  I dropped the philosophy this time.

God's Many Blessings,
Jeff G.

Take it to the Limit,One More Time! (Eagles)