I just got back from my folk's house. I went for dinner & spent the day. Watched a football game & tried to help my Mom with a computer issue. I couldn't solve it so she will have to call her service provider. I don't think it is anything too serious though. So now I am back home & alone once more.
Joyce, I hope you had a good day. It seems that you are doing OK under the circumstances. Let us know how it goes if you go to the support group. I did check out your blog. Enjoyed the pictures. I am writing in a journal, but never did a blog. I know how you feel. Everything just seems like more of a chore now when your alone.
Sue, Hope things are going OK for you. I don't know if I already mentioned that I too liked the picture you posted. We all look so happy & healthy, it is hard to believe that all of this has happened to all of us!
Pauline, Not sure if it is appropriate, but Happy Birthday. It sounds like you & I are kind of at the same point even though you are a little further along. Odd how we are all generally a month apart, You at over 3 me at over 2 & Joyce & Sue have gotten to 1. It still all seems so unreal. I think you are right Pauline, the first month or so I don't really think you know what you are doing or saying. It is all so surreal & you are definately in shock. I think you then graduate to disbelief, & finally it starts to sink in that it is real & is not going to change. Everything that you said is exactly what I am feeling too. Jim is still constantly on my mind & sometimes the pain is still too much to bear. I am having a problem with not being able to dream of Jim either & when I do I can't really remember much the next day. I am glad that your wish cane true. It sounds like it was a onderful dream. I keep all sorts of pictures around & look at them often so I can keep him in my mind. My birthday was 2 days after Jim passed away, so I have that first over with, but I think I was real deeply in shock then, so I wasn't really even dealing with it & everyone else was afraid to bring it up as it was so soon after he died. I still have people coming in & asking for him that don't know he is gone & I have to explain. That is still hard to do, but I am sure it will happen time & again for a long time. Some days I truly just want to stay home & be alone, but then I get so depressed & lonely & think that I do need to keep busy. Every now & then I will clean out a cupboard or drawer or go through pictures. I sometimes get obssessed with doing something & getting it done. Other times I just sit around staring into space & doing absolutely nothing. It is just so hard. I am so glad that we all have each other to talk with & hopefully together we can help each other work through all of this. All of our situations are so similar in many different ways.
Everyone have a good week. Take care & know that I will be thinking of all of you.
"One Day At A Time"
All of my comments and suggestions are just my opinions and are not a substitute for professional medical advice. You should always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health care providers.