Topic: My beloved husband
This is my first time posting in a very long time.....I was a frequent reader but not much of a poster.
It is with great sadness that I tell you that my husband lost his battle with CC on December 27 at the age of 50. He battle for 10 months, while 7 were good ones the last 2 1/2 were really difficult.
I still can't believe this has happened..somehow I convinced myself that cancer would not take him and he would will this battle even though I knew better because of all the research I did.
I have been in love with this man since we started dating as teenagers 33 years ago, I don't know a life without him. My children and I are devastated...we miss him so much. Our house is filled with so much sadness, we can't see the happy times through that.
I am so angry that no one can figure out how to fix this. How many more people have to die before something is done. I have to admit that I started believing in that rhetoric that it is too profitable not to cure cancer.
Anyway, I guess you can see that my emotions are all over the place....sadness, anger...oh and guilt because I couldn't fix it....fear because I am all my children have now.
Sorry for rambling.....you all are amazing people with such compassion.
I enjoyed reading and learning from you all.... I admire so many of you for your strength. My wish for all of you is to continue your fight---I will check in from time to time and I want to see all of you here sharing success stories like I hoped I would be doing.
Please god, bless them all with a cure.