I just got back from the hospital...no chemo again because my liver values are not so hot. The bad news continues....the PET scan revealed abnormalities in a lymph node and in my liver. They are not sure if they are cancer or not...could be inflamation from the surgery, but most likely not. There is also a possiblility I have a blood clot in my shoulder. I will have a test to check for that as well as a ultrasound with contrast to check the liver. They are waiting on the lymph node test because they want chemo to have a chance at it first.
I am on steroids and have now been taken off my antidepressent to help my liver. I am already devastated about the news and delay in chemo again. I am not sure how I will handle things without the zoloft. I will have more bloodwork on Thursday to see if it is working. There is a possibility I will change my chemo regime to Gemzar instead of Xeloda and quite the Avastan, but keep the Oxaliplatin.
I am so upset. I feel great. I dont understand how things could gotten so bad so fast when I feel so good. My doctor said I looked great too. I told him that I have not given up so they could not either to which he replied that for someone like me they leave no stones unturned.
How can I fight this cancer when my liver is protesting? It is a liver enzyme, not the bilirubin that is up. BLAH. I am so frustrated and angry and scared right now.
36 year old patient with buckets of hope