Topic: missing my mom :(
This is my first time here. Around September 2008, my mother started complaining of pains in her stomach and was not able to eat anything. This was the first time I had really ever heard my mom complain about anything so I pushed her to go to her doctor. She went and the doctor believed she was having a gallbladder attack but sent her for an ultrasound to confirm her diagnosis. Unfortunately our healthcare system sucks and moms appointment was not for almost 3 months, however being a nurse I was able to get it pushed ahead to within a week. Following the ultrasound, mom was called by the doctor who wanted to discuss the results with her. This is where my heart break begins. Mom went to the appointment, alone!!. Why not, there was never any indication anything was seriously wrong. This was Sept 3., 2008. This was the day mom found out she had spots on her liver and was referred to a general surgeon. To make a long story short, after going in circles and being completely disrespected by doctors, we were informed that mom had stage 4 liver cancer (intra-hepatic cholangiocarcinoma). It was too advanced to do any form of treatment. Over the phone, I was informed that mom had weeks to months to live. We were not even given enough respect to be told face to face that our mother was going to die. Mom wanted to go home, and we were going to respect her wishes. We had months right? and miracles happen every day!! This is when the doctor decided to visit. When he walked out of the room, I said "do you really think she only has weeks to months", he said "No". Thank God....I was not ready to lose her!!. He then followed his statement with "she has days to weeks". We took mom home that evening and spent the next 10 days showering her with all the love we were blessed enough to recieve from her. We watched her slowly decline until she slipped into a coma. At 5:52pm on October 20, 2008 at the young age of 52 our world came shattering down. Mom passed away, and myself (26), my brother (28) and my sister (23) were left wihout a mom, without our best friend, without our world. Although it feels like a lifetime ago, it has not even been 6 months. I feel like we are living a nightmare and that any moment we will wake up. How could this have happened. I hate when people say they understand, they don't!! I found this site and decided to share my story in the hopes that someone does understand. In the hopes that somone can help me breath again. Thank you for taking the time to read this. God Bless you all.