Topic: It's been a year...
At times I thought I would never make this milestone. It's been one year since Mom died. I've spent the morning rereading my posts and reliving the memories of her last days.
I've come a very long way in the grieving process but honestly still have a ways to go. At this one year mark I have mostly good days but the sadness and yearning to have my Mom back still remains. It's hardest when I leave work everyday because that's when I would always call my Mom.
My Mom was always doing something nice for everyone. She was always sending cards to people. She said having a card or note that you could hold was more personal than emails. In her honor and memory I decided to start sending cards (which I make as a hobby) and notes whenever the need presents itself. One of her dearest friends is now the caregiver for her huband who has multiple myeloma. This woman was so thoughtful and caring during my Mom's illness, always sending two or three cards a week and dropping off meals at least once a week. I've been trying to be sure to send her notes and cards.
I've also become a volunteer to my son-in-law's Marine squadron. Yesterday we welcomed home 95 Marines from Afghanistan and I've now logged over 100 hours as a volunteer. It helps to give something back and know it's in Mom' s honor.
I'm teary eyed today but I'll get through. Grief is the hardest task I've ever had to tackle. It's incredibly hard and wearing but in some strange way it's taught me so much....to be more compassionate and caring. I know I have refined my faith and have a strength inside of me that I didn't know existed. I've still got a long way to go.
Thank you all so much for being with me on this journey....I love you all....
"A prognosis is simply an audit of how truly precious each day is. Live each day to the maximum, celebrate what was, and what is - Don't spend your life looking forward to what will or might be." .... words of wisdom from my beloved son on hearing of his grandmother's CC prognosis.