Topic: 3 months to long
I just found this board today. I like that it has certain subjects that we can talk about. It has been three months today, that my Wayne went to see Jesus, at 4:27 p.m. It feels like yesterday. I was standing holding his hand by his side, when he left. Today I went and sat by his side and cried at that never forgetful time. It just happens to be my daughter's birthday, she noticed the minute he went. Coming to this site today makes me feel like I'm not alone. Other sites that I've seen, is for any kind of death, no one had heard of this killer. I've even had to explain to nurses, and medical personal what bile duct cancer is, their not even sure what organ, or organs are involved. Wayne was diagnoised last summer, the doctor told us what type of cancer he had, but that was it, no details. On Feb. 10th after we had been in the hospital for two weeks, I asked our doctor, was it now stage 4, he said it was stage 4 when we found it last summer. He never told us, he told us nothing. He gave us no choices, we had no idea how close we were to dying. He finally told me he had six months that day in Feb., one week later like I said he went to see Jesus. We have been married for 35 years. I guess I've said enough for my first time. Life with Wayne, I could write a book, but that's for next time. I'm not sure were I am at the grieving I cry everyday, I'm taking something to sleep, something for my aniety attackes, and my blood pressure. I still feel like I'm going to go off any time. I can't keep my mine on any subject for very long at a time, you probably can see that.
I'm not a widow, I am a wife
We are only apart for heaven's sake
You are waiting for me at heaven's gate