Topic: Need to VENT!!!!!!!!!
Mom's been on home hospice at my sister's house for almost 2 weeks now. I have two kids in school and a work-from-home job, my sister has two youngsters and has cut her hours as a home hospice nurse to 2 days a week. I'm here to help on Mondays during the day, on Tuesdays and stay overnight into Wednesdays.
My Mom has had more nausea the last 24 hours (Haldol helps), her confusion has increased a bit again today, and she's sleeping more and eating/drinking less. My Dad, who has vascular dementia, is having a particularly bad day (meaning even more confused than usual). We had the talk again about Mom's terminal diagnosis, and once again it was like it was the first time Dad heard the news. He just keeps saying her wants to take her home, and I keep trying to explain why we can't. Now he's worried that the nurse isn't coming til tomorrow, he's afraid she'll die today. She's not close yet.
Between the two of my parents, I was up 8 or 9 times during the night. To top it all off, I got a call earlier from the health room at my 6th grader's school that she's there with a bad tummy ache and needs to be picked up. On her THIRD day of middle school! I'm 30 minutes away, and couldn't get a hold of my father-in-law or neighbor to pick her up. ARGH!!!!!!!!!
Things did settle down, I eventually tracked down my neighbor and my daughter is safe and sound. So I didn't have to leave my parents alone to go get her. My sister will be home just in time for me to leave and meet my 4th grader at his bus stop.
But really, how much more can a family take? I'm really having one of those "why God?" days, which I usually don't, or try not to have. Sigh.
OK, Pity Party is over, we now resume our regular programming...
my mother lost her 16 month battle with CC 9/26/10
"Mothers have as powerful an influence over the welfare of future generations as all other earthly causes combined."