I lost Wayne nine months ago to cc, and my Mom 2 weeks ago from time.
I can't help it I think of Wayne just about every waking moment these days. There is two more weeks before Christmas, I can't help of thinking of him, it seems everything I do is still surrounded with him, my thoughts, and my emotions. I am going to a couselor every week, if it wasn't for that I would really be crazy. I cry more these days and am still angry that our time together was cut short, I know he is better off to be without the pain, but I am so lost without him. To be such a happy time of the year, this year is the saddest for me.
I'm not a widow, I am a wife
We are only apart for heaven's sake
You are waiting for me at heaven's gate