Topic: After 11 years.........
I am still missing my Mom. I just found this website today and am hoping for maybe a little peace and closure. She was diagnosed in early 1999. She went through the chemo, the radiation, the traveling to try to get help only to be turned down by her insurance and wind up right back home. She had to have 3 liters of water removed from her body at least once a week sometimes two. She was admitted to the hospital on a Friday in August because we thought her medicines were making her sick. The doctor came in on that Sunday and said that it wasn't her medicine but that her liver was leaking toxins into her body and that was what was making her sick and it was time to contact Hospice. I, being young and not knowing, thought "great, she will have nurses coming everyday to check in on her and help her with whatever she needed." I had no idea that Hospice, in my mind, is the last stop before someone dies. The doctor said that she had at least 6 months.
We took Mom home, made her as comfortable as we could, and the family provide 24 hour "watch". My Uncle, her brother, came in the mornings when I left for work and stayed with her until he had to leave for work. Then it was my Grandmother, her Mom, until I got home from work.
That Wednesday after she came home from the hospital, she died. He said 6 months not 3 days. I was devistated!! She was my best friend and she was just.................gone. I still have not really dealt with her death. I know she is dead but I guess I just don't know how to deal with it.
I hope and pray that anyone needing help can find it and not have to go through the not knowing like my family did.