Topic: New Year's Day
Today is the first New Year's Day in 27 years without my beloved husband.
I am watching the Mummer's Parade and cleaning the kitchen, anything to keep moving. My husband was a South Philly guy and we loved watching the parade on tv.
It's still so unbelievable to me that I will live the rest of my life without him by my side. That my kids don't have their dad to turn to when they need him.
I'm wondering if I will ever stop leaking tears.
I am moving closer each day to the first anniversary of his passing.
Only those of you who have walked this journey can understand this kind of pain.
I pray each day for healing for all who have been diagnosed and peace for all who have the role of caretaker.
I want to say Happy New Year.
But I feel more like saying, "Dear Lord please help me and the kids get through this New Year without him".
Peace and Love to all.