Re: Liver Infusion Pump?
Cindy: As Lainy said, anxiety is a part of our lives. I KNOW my tumor has shrunk, but that doesn't help the anxiety level as I sit here and wait for my scan. Because I don't know how much more it's shrunk yet... And I've been a wreck this week as I think about meeting with my surgeon on Monday. The not knowing what is going to happen is very stressful, and my backache is through the roof the past few days, probably in part because of the stress (I'm sure mostly because of the chemo). I can't wait to get thru Monday and know what the next step in my fight is going to be.
Even though I stress about this, I try to stay positive. I was told to use visualization by a friend of mine. So I have this happy craggy old troll that picks off pieces of my tumor and eats it. BTW, he showed up: I was trying to do pacman. The first time, he stopped eating. He was happy, but full. And my scan showed the tumor had shrunk. He came back a few times to eat and always stopped with some tumor left. The next scan showed the tumor had shrunk more. The other day he ran out of stuff to eat. I'm PRAYING that means the tumor is gone. Think positive!! If you think negative you get negative.
So from now until Friday here's your homework: picture your tumor in a white light, or pray, or visualize the tumor shrinking however you want. But think positive! You can stress, but don't let bad thoughts stay in your mind. Push them out with the good news you've read on this site.
Once you get good news it gets easier. I had a rough time trying to stay positive from April until July when nothing seemed to go right. But I kept trying to stay positive. And when things finally turned around, it was easier!
I will keep you in my prayers that your scan on Friday goes great and you are one of the ones that has unbelievably good results with the pump!
"Don't just have minutes in the day; have moments in time."
Any opinions I give are based on personal experiences, and are not based on medical knowledge. I strongly suggest receiving medical care and opinions.