• dee
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One year ago my wonderful mom, my dad's loving wife, and my children's greatest grandma left us. I have spent most of the year trying to figure out a way to go on without her. Sometimes I cry so hard hoping God will hear me and send her back. Sometimes I smile when I remember our talks. Other times, I get so mad that she will never share another Birthday/Christmas or any other holiday with the family she loved so much.  After the first year, they say, it gets better.  I don't understand how the next Christmas will be better. She will still be gone.  I will forever feel the loss of my mom on Mothers Day.  Today, one year later, I remember the pain exactly the same way as the day she left. She was, and always will be the most wonderful person I have ever had in my life and I will ALWAYS miss her.

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Dee,
   My heart goes out to you and your family.  I pray that God will give you strength.  I believe your mother is with you and will always be.  Love is forever!! 
My Mom has been fighting this terrible cancer since March 06.  I can't nor do I want to imagine life without her.  However, it's always in the back of my mind.  Reading your message really affected me...It sounded like something I would write. 
I guess, just know that there are people who's hearts ache too.  Hopefully, one day we will all be reunited with our loved ones.

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You Are Never Alone If God Lives In Your Heart.   I have this little card on my computer desk and when I'm feeling low and sad I read it and read it again.  I understand the loneliness is only temporary and I know those who I have lost already would not want me to continually grieve but remember the good times until eternity arrives and we meet and embrace once again.  God gives us the strength I'm sure.
Jeff G.

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Your kind words do help to ease my sadness.  As you said, God will give me strength. I remember watching my own mother at her father's funeral.  She was so strong.  When I told her that I would never be able to go on without her, she calmly said I would. She said God will give you the strength.  We all know that a time will come when we must all say good-bye.  Sadly, we will never be ready.  One of the last things my mother said in her final days was that life goes so fast.  She was right.  The past year went by so fast.  Tonight our family gathered together as we did on that awful day one year ago.  As we prayed together,  we all felt that Mom was with us. It was a way we could show her that her legacy lives on in all of us. Thank you all for letting me write down my thoughts. You are very special people.

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May Deeko's Dad rest in peace !  You'll find Deeko's post under Eperiences.
Jeff G.

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My thoughts and prayers to you.  Almost one year ago (next month) it will be one year since I lost my mom.  She was a healthy, vibrant lady that loved life.  This horrible disease took her quickly and we learned quickly that it would not be easy for her.  I keep searching, reading, trying to understand what has happened - I can't make sense of what has turned our lives upside down.  It hurts terribly to read these stories but I keep trying to see if there is some common thread that all our loved ones shared.  I miss my mom every single day and know you do too.  People tell me I should be over it, but they don't understand what her final days were like.  I believe you understand.

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Dear dee and butterfly,
I feel the pain that you speak of - my mother died 8.5 months ago and I still crash into a terrible depression every 22nd of each month, the anniversary of her death. The other days aren't so great, either. The pain has not diminished and I'm sure it will diminish a bit with time, but right now it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. We were blessed to have known such wonderful souls, but somehow that makes it so much worse to live in a world without them.
I celebrate your beautiful mothers, and mine too, taken too soon from us and leaving a void that cannot be filled.
Joyce