Hello dearest C. I most certainly hear you loud and clear. Perhaps when you have the love like we were so fortunate to have you become so enmeshed with each other that it seems we loose that physical half of us as well as our mental half. In other words the 2 of you made a whole and for now you have lost half yourself as well. Not sure I am making sense here, sometimes I wish everyone knew what I was thinking when I find it so hard to express.
You will somehow find the strength as D would want you to.
You will be happy again one day as D would want you to.
You will be yourself again with the exception of one place in your heart as D is still there.
I can't remember if you said how many years you were married. We were married 16 and I just keep reminding myself that I had this unbelievable man who loved me more than life, for 16 years, which is more than most people find in a lifetime. I am a lucky lady.
You cannot see or touch me,
But I'm standing next to you,
Your tears can only hurt me,
Your sadness makes me blue,
Be brave and show a smiling face,
Let not your grief show through,
I love you from a different place,
Yet I'm standing next to you
Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.