Topic: Lost my Daddy
My dad lost his battle last Tuesday, January 3rd at 9am. My mother, my husband and I were by his side. As many of you may remember from my other posts, he has had a roller coaster battle. He defied what most doctors said, and did not "follow the rules" as to the way most people progress with this disease. But, that was how he lived his life. He was a very unique person. He was full of life and loved to laugh and make others laugh. You couldn't help but to love him. He was a fantastic artist. I am so very thankful that the last work he did was a beautiful pencil drawing of my two girls. What a wonderful legacy he has left to them. He and I were always very close. He would take me out to lunch once a week after I got married just to spend time with me. He was a wonderful father. I miss him so much. The hardest part is trying to get the images out of my head that were his last few hours. He was completely coherent all the way to the end. He had to get into a hospital bed on Friday (4 days before) only because he could no longer get up and out of his chair. From that point on, he declined rapidly. He began to get very restless. His heart rate increased dramamtically. Then he couldn't swallow his medicine. We saw the signs of mottling. Jaundice set in. Lastly, his lungs filled with fluid. I must say it was a terrible thing to watch and not be able to do anything about. We tried every medicine available to us, but it didn't help. He tried to talk to us but couldn't. But he knew we were there and how much we loved him. In the last few minutes, a peace came over him. That was such a relief to us. I think he just fought all the way to the end to stay for my 2 little girls. He loved them so. While my heart hurts and is full of grief, I rest in knowing that he is no longer in pain and is in Heaven with our Savior. As my daughter said, "He is dancing and playing now." I will always have questions as to why my kids will have to grow up without their grandfather who loved them more than anything in this world. But I know all things have a reason and a purpose, and all things are for the glory of God. Dad's service was not typical. It was perfect for him. The message came from Genesis 1 and told how God was in the business of artistry when He created the Earth. My dad is with the Master artist now.
Thank you all for the words of encouragement and help you have given along the way. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through, and I will be forever grateful to this site and the amazing people here.
Sorry this was such a long post.