Today at work I got a e-mail, they are going to delete everything over 6 months old. I thought of all Wayne's e-mails, that he had sent me. I started reading them and copying. Then I started crying, and crying. I have read these many times before but I couldn't have his words destroyed, without getting a copy. Some were of complaining, some of love, and sometimes he would tease me when he had a doctor's appointment, who died and left you boss, I always told him, NO one died to leave me boss I was always the boss. I did notice this time around that after diagnosis, the e-mails became fewer, and fewer. Not long after Christmas of 2009, they had just about quit. He went to see Jesus 2-17-2010. This has been the longest two years, and it is the hardest thing I've ever done. Please excuse the writing, since he left it is hard for me to write a sentence without leaving out words, or using a totally wrong words that came from, I don't know where. I try to reread what I do write, so I can catch some of the many mistakes. Married 35 years plus 2.
I'm not a widow, I am a wife
We are only apart for heaven's sake
You are waiting for me at heaven's gate