Topic: Is this the end??
Dad has been home on Hospice exactly one month. The last 2 days he has become more "out of it" just staring off, quiet. Yesterday morning he got the Rigors again then started to become agitated. The hospice nurse came over & checked him out. His blood pressure was low 90 over 56 & Heart rate up over 90. She gave him some Ativan & liquid morphine that seemed to calm him down. We gathered the whole family to the house and just stayed with him throughout the rest of the day..he seemed to be doing better late afternoon, we all watched the Angels baseball game & told stories, dad became animated & involved. It's as if he had this new spurt of energy ! He woke up from a long nap than around 9:00 pm he started to become agitated again. We gave him more Ativan & liquid morphine but it got worse. He then soiled himself & was talking gibberish & hallucinating. Hospice came over around midnight ( they are so great) and gave him more drops. They said his agitation was a sign of pain & discomfort. He had a temperature of 101 so she gave him a Tylenol suppository. Also ended up putting a diaper on him. His bp was even lower & heart rate up very high. She said she thought he would pass this weekend. We are all just so scared. He seemed to be doing fine then so suddenly turned the corner. As much as I don't want him to go, I hate seeing him suffer like this. How long will this stage last? We all gathered in his room telling him we loved him what a great father/ husband is & that its ok to go. This is all just so hard