Topic: Here's where I am now.
Hello my dear friends,
Here is my situation at this point. Since March I've lost 65 pounds and now have gained 18 of it back in abdominal fluid. I look every bit as pegnant as my daughter who is due within 2 weeks. I had a drain on Dec 29, and they removed 3-1/2 liters; I had a drain yesterday 1/13, and they drained just shy of 3 liters. The oncologist put my on some diuretic 12.5 mg of hydrochlorizide or something like that once a day and I haven't even gone to the bathroom since I took my first pill this morning at 8. I am still on Gemzar and Xeloda, but it seems to be getting rougher, and all this ascites makes it hard to do anything. Anybody out there who has actuallly had luck with removal of ascites without an outside drain or a stent? I've been on chemo for nearly 8-1/2 months. Should I just go off and take a 3 week vacation or is that going to cause a setback as far as "hopscotching." You guys are my doctors. I'm so afraid of an outside drain because I live by myself, and would I have to drain that myself and how would I know how much to take out?
Also - a very hard question for me to ask you guys. I'm having a hard time bringing up final wishes and services, etc. with my daughter. Should I even be doing this now? We have discussed a little bit, but I feel like bringing it up, I am jinxing myself.
I always picture you guys in cheerleader outfits spurring me on. Love you, guys.