Topic: Cycle of Life
I am stuck thinking tonight that I am back again at Denial. Still can't believe it's been 5+ months since my Mom left this world, merely weeks after diagnosis and dropping everything to "help" her. I know I did all I could, I know I "must" move on and live my life, but it's still a shock, overwhelming, and the cycle of life is a little lost on me at this time.
Now the cycle of grief, I know that one well... Denial...Anger...Bartering...Depression...Acceptance, and the loop continues.
I am making progress and heavily invested in school these days (thankfully), but when does the disbelief stop, I wonder. Then again, the mind knows that when it does, it's over. Such an amazing thing this cycle of life. It's got me in it grasp tonight, after dreams of her last night.
I'll pull it back together, but I just had to get it out for now. Thanks for listening. -ljg