I am pleased to report the tapping of my dads abdomen was successfully done yesterday. It wasn't an easy process and I was beginning to regret my decision, but now I am thinking it was worth it. We decided to have an ambulance take him to the hospital and we follow in a car b/c of concern along the way for bumps and general uncomfortableness b/c the pain has gotten really intollerable. It was a sad site, my brother came over with his kids as the paramedics were loading my dad, and my brothers 2 year old started to cry for grandpa, and that made my dad cry. The Hospice dr. was an Italian, and he spoke Italian to my dad, which made my dad smile. He took my mom and me in the hall and told us everything with the bark off- CC is vey aggressive, the tumors are in the internal organs, the acites is coming from the organs not functioning properly anymore. The liver is shutting down, and that is producing toxins in he body which is what is making him so fatigued, it will eventually go to the brain and to the lungs. He said "no one knows when, but this is what will happen" The words were the harshest I have heard, but he said it with such kindness, and sympathy...Then he asked, "what do you want for Roberto?" we said "a bit more comfort at the end of his journey" "perhaps to sit up in bed, possibly walk outside and look at his yard, just a few simple acts that will mean the world to him and us." So the Dr. said, "ok, the fluid in him is in pockets, so it will be a bit more difficult, but we are going to get some out" and they did. Yesterday they took out 6 liters. He came back to the room and said, he allready felt a weight lifted. He had some soup and ate a cup at normal spead and grapes, and he actually wanted them, he really wanted a glass of red wine, but he will have a glass tonight at home. I am picking him up from hospital this am, and I don't know how long we have- weeks or maybe just days, but we are going to make the most of the time. I treat every moment, every conversation, every smile, as a gift now with my dad. It is no longer about quantity, but quality.
Today WILL be a good day.
The Lord is my shephard