I am so sorry you did not get your surgery, especially when you worked so hard for it. I have just read your caring bridge site and am in awe of your strength after such events. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Remember what I tell my doctor "I know the outcome, but there is a big difference in 5 months and 5 years and nobody knows what it will be. I am young. I have a wonderful life. Besides having cancer, I am perfectly healthy. So we will fight until we cant fight anymore. I am not a statistic and I am more than my cancer." That is you too, dear Rose. We are fighters...with a lot to fight for.
I will keep you in my prayers.
Cancer is a word, not a sentence.
36 year old patient with buckets of hope