Topic: Waiting game
I try to be positive but right now I absolutely hate this waiting game. My dad is still waiting for a liver and we know he is right at the top of the list. He has been holding out strong until just this weekend when he had to be readmitted to the hospital. He keeps getting dehydrated and so needs more fluids. They redid his stent on Friday and he is still having a hard time. They are keeping him because his kidneys are starting to fail as well. The liver we know is failing (his bilirubin won't come down and is currently around 30-32).
I am trying to be the "rock" of the family as I am the oldest (I am 31) of 5 kids (youngest is 17). There are also 6 grandkids (oldest is 6). This weekend though I am falling apart. Every time someone asks how my dad is I break down in tears.
He needs a liver so bad and I hate the helpless feeling of only being able to hope and pray that one comes soon. He is only 54 and has so much to live for...I am so thankful though for all the doctors who have tried to help him be comfortable and get through this...I know they are still hopeful but realistic.
Thanks for letting me vent...I need it