Topic: Bad News
So I went to see my consultant yesterday to have a check up. I had developed a couple of lumps on my chest, forehead and back of my head in the last couple of weeks, along with a build up of some sort at my resection scar, near my belly button. She examined me and and confirmed my worst fears that the lump near the scar was tumour-related, and that if confirmed, it would be incurable.
I am due to have a CT scan in two weeks where this will be confirmed but I feel like my world has fallen apart. After going through the surgery in November I thought I would have more time than this before it returned. I do not have any sort of timescales as we need to see the extent of the spread but this will come from the scan.
I am going to have Cisplatin added to my chemo regime from Tuesday (currently I am on Gemcitabine only) and will have treatment two weeks on, one week off, which will hopefully control the spread. I will search these forums for info on Cisplatin but any info on side effects would be helpful.
I am just in a state of shock at the moment, at a loss as to what to say to my family, who obviously are suffering too. I have started thinking about everything I am going to miss and never going to have in the future. i just need an outlet for this.