Topic: Haven't been here for awhile but need to talk
My John has been gone since Nov. and I'm still a mess. I've gone back to work but am not making it financially. I've sold just about everything and finally had to sell my wedding rings a couple of days ago.
That night I had a dream that John was in my arms dieing all over again. It has wiped me out.
I don't know have any support from anyone anymore. Everyone I know seems to think I've grieved long enough. It's ( I think ) because John was a step father that my grown children are tired of me being depressed and yes, even angry because he's gone. My youngest had the incredible insensitivity to tell me I was going to be an "Old bitter woman" if I don't stop this, that I sound like a victim and I need to take control.
I don't know how.
I tried grief counseling but it wasn't like I thought it would be. We sat around and watched a video with people talking of the deaths in their families and how God has brought them through it. They were like robots, no real emotion.
I don't know what to do or where to turn except here. I'm hurting and need your help. I need someone who cares how I'm feeling, who knows how it feels to lose your spouse.
I've cut myself off from my family to a certain degree just because of their attitude. I feel so alone.