Topic: I can't believe this is happening so fast
Hi all -
Dad's lung biopsies finally came back with the 'definitive' cancer diagnosis we had been expecting. However, both his lungs are almost completely filled with cancer. He can't have surgery and he can't have chemo because his bilirubin is too high. Dad is opting for a second percutaneous biliary drain in hopes that his bilirubin comes down enough for chemo. Doc said he would allow chemo if it came down to 4 maybe (it's at 14 at the moment - down from 27 a few weeks ago). The biggest concern at the moment is his breathing - he's currently on about 10-14 liters of oxygen depending on how he is doing at the moment, and he still has his chest tube in from last Monday's surgery. The doc discussed a DNR with us, as he is expecting that Dad might need a respirator soon. I can't wrap my mind around this. His first symptoms started exactly 2 months ago. How do you go from feeling fine to being told you are Stage 4 with no treatment options in 2 months? Doc said Dad had the choice to just come home and if so, would give him just weeks to live. I'm afraid to leave the hospital thinking everytime that it might be the last time we have together.
I know I'm rambling, I'm so just sad and MAD MAD MAD. I'm jealous of all the people who get a diagnosis and have the time and the ability to fight it - how crazy is that? I feel like my Dad hasn't even gotten a chance to get better. Now he lives in a hospital bed with multiple tubes sticking out of him and no strength to get out of bed. It's so unfair.