Topic: Need some mental help and lots of prayers!
Need you to keep me in your prayers this weekend. We've now come to another step in the grieving process that needs to be accomplished ...cleaning out my Mom's closet.
I know it's time and my sister and I are going to Greensboro this Saturday to sort and dispose of some of the things in Mom's closet. I can't tell you how much I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS!!!
I know it's got to be done and that Mom would laugh and tell me that material things are not what's important in our lives. Still it's going to be hard. Each time I've been back to Greensboro, I go and stand in her closet before I leave to come home. While I'm there and close my eyes it's as if she wraps her arms around me and I smell her perfume. In that closet I can be a little girl, dependent on her Mom again.
I know this is totally silly for a grown woman to dread something so much.
I know we'll get through this and that it will be a good thing for Daddy. The closet is a huge walk in closet and when it's empty, he is going to add some ventilation and use it as his hobby space. He builds and flys radio controlled airplanes from scratch...not a kit. He will enjoy this as it gets colder and winter gets nearer. I know it will give him something else to keep him busy and creative.
*sigh*....Another step on this awful journey...please walk it with me as you have all of the other steps....
Hugs and love,
"A prognosis is simply an audit of how truly precious each day is. Live each day to the maximum, celebrate what was, and what is - Don't spend your life looking forward to what will or might be." .... words of wisdom from my beloved son on hearing of his grandmother's CC prognosis.