Topic: I'm back...
Well I'm back from my trip to America, to see my Mum for the first time since we left her in August just 5 weeks after my Dad died.
Yes, it was incredibly difficult as I expected. All the way over on the 9 hr flight I was reminiscing that my last trip over my Dad had come to collect me from the airport. Ok, he wasn't driving but he was there.....
This time my hubby and I picked up a car and drove the 40+ miles to Mum's. When I went in I began to cry and cry, the tears flowed, he wasn't there to meet me and I think then was a turning point.
In the nearly 5 months since he had gone I coul kid myself that it wasn't real, tangible, that he was going to be there when I went back to their house. BUT HE WASN'T and never will be again. so strangely I think it was another step on my journey to accepting what I had been trying to deny by keeping myself busy, busy busy since we left.....
We shared memories and could smile about my Dad, alongside tears. My Mum has come a long ways since we came back to England.
Then 3 days later my hubby and I took our cruise that we had cancelled in July and I totally relaxed and enjoyed every minute of it. Even the 62 mph winds and rain that were the edge of hurricane Ida!!! None all seson then we take our cruise and along she comes!!
So it's back to work tomorrow, piles of washing, tidying up after 2 teenagers who had been 'home alone' and living my life, as my Dad would have expected.
Nice to be back, need to catch up on all the newcomers,
Love to all Katie