THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU for all the waves of support & the kind emails I've received from you. I don't really know what happened except that I suddenly felt completely overwhelmed & the longer I left it, the further down the spiral I slid.
Susan had a good meeting with the Onc, about her mid-chemo scan, just under a month ago & he told her the CA99 had come down significantly & that, although there was no evidence of shrinkage, there was clear evidence that it hasn't spread & that he was pleased with her tolerance of the Gem/Cis regime. His parting words were "everything's fine & don't worry too much about the risk of infection". The next day, she complained of the cold & within about 20 minutes her temperature had shot up to 104F & she was semi-conscious & delirious. I couldn't get hold of the Chemo Unit, so I called 999 & she was whisked off to the local A&E with sirens wailing & blue lights flashing.
After a week in isolation in a side-room on an antibiotic drip, they concluded it was the "Winter Vomiting" norovirus, not the cancer, which had caused the problem, although I imagine being weakened by the disease & the treatment will have aggravated her reaction to the virus. It was very frightening to watch, although the doctors kept trying to reassure me she would be all right.
She's out now & seems to be just about through a post-viral reaction. I had no time to do anything whilst she was so ill & once she got out, I think I went into my own post-viral depression. (Mum's 86 & was also having a hard time coping, although she insisted on travelling to the hospital every day, so I was trying to keep an eye on her, too.)
To Marion, Darla & Gavin who wrote to me & to all of you who asked after me & thought of us & sent your supportive vibes & best wishes to us ... THANK YOU. I feel so supported & so very lucky to have found you all.
I'm so sorry to have missed February - but I'm glad to see there's a CCF page on Facebook now, so I imagine CC Awareness Month is now alive & kicking. Yay!! I'll do my best to catch up & get participating again. I did meet Pauline on Saturday & that was wonderful. I'm so glad to be pulling out of whatever fearful place I'd got myself stuck in.
Love Julia x
“When it is dark enough, you can see the stars." - Ralph Waldo Emerson