Topic: Seeking therapy

I finally talked myself into getting a therapy appointment  I also, made a group therapy at hospice.  Things have not been good, Wayne went to see Jesus of Feb 17, 2010, at 4:37 p.m.  Calling to make a appointment was a very big step for me.  Tomorrow I had a appoinment at 10:00 am, today at 5:45 she calls and cancels it.  She said something important came up out of town.  I feel another let down, I'm on two different depression medications,  now I'm more depressed.  She changed the apointment to Wed., I wanted to go to individual before group, but that's not happening. Tues. group, Wed. individual, and Thursday Wayne's birthday.  I knew it was going to be a bad week, but I don't know if I'm going to be able to handle it.  One of Wayne's friend called last week, he was bragging about his millions, so I asked about Wayne's funeral bill I still owe 13,100, he said you know why he and I got out of touch, because Wayne was so depressed, what would  he have to be depressed over, he had lost his leg above his knee, three bloodclots and open heart surgery.  I hope I can hang in there to see if these therapies work, I don't know?

Love to my Wayne for 36 years
I'm not a widow, I am a wife
We are only apart for heaven's sake
You are waiting for me at heaven's gate

Re: Seeking therapy

I really hope you get some solid support soon, missingwayne - you don't need "friends" like that.

You are very much in my thoughts.

Julia x

“When it is dark enough, you can see the stars." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

3 (edited by Bazel Wed, 09 Jun 2010 12:41:48)

Re: Seeking therapy

Seeking therapy takes strength and is an indication that you are stronger than you may feel. You are facing one of life's greatest challenges in overcoming your grief in loosing Wayne and having help in the process may be exactly the right path for you. Just a little note of caution and a thought to consider.. not all therapist are created equal. Like a pair of shoes, they may look good and you like them but they're not the right fit. Don't be discouraged if it takes more than one (or multiple) attempts to connect with a therapist that meets your needs.

Take care of you ...

Bz

Re: Seeking therapy

I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you and hoping that the therapy is working out OK for you.  I will also be thinking of you tomorrow, as I know all too well how hard those special days can be. 

Take Care
Love & Hugs,
Darla

"One Day At A Time"

All of my comments and suggestions are just my opinions and are not a substitute for professional medical advice.   You should always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health care providers.

Re: Seeking therapy

I started therapy Tuesday, with group from Hospice, it was good, I cried a lot the lady with me didn't seem to cry at all.  The therapist said crying is good for you, it expells hormones that would stay in us.  I should be hormone free by now, how about y'all.  The individual therapist asked me about anger, I said yes, I am not angry at Wayne, or God, but to a certain doctor that wasn't up front with us.  She said I need to try to release my anger, ask my daughter I will.
Today was not the time for that, for today is Wayne's 60th birthday.  Our daughter and I spent the day together, doing a lot of the things that we did last year together.  Last year we celebrated his birthday at Cracker Barrell, of course we were late, so our daughter had them to sing Happy Birthday to him.  Two months after Wayne went to see Jesus, we went in there, I had a shirt that said My husband was so brave God made him an angel, the waitress gave me a gold coin with Jesus on one side and the Lord's Supper on the other, it stays with me always.  Today I had a shirt with Wayne's picture on in In Loving Honor of my Husband  Wayne.  On one side it said sunrise 6-10-1950, the other side sunset 2-17-2010, we all had a hug and a cry.   Angels are all around us!!!!

Love to my Wayne for 36 years
I'm not a widow, I am a wife
We are only apart for heaven's sake
You are waiting for me at heaven's gate

Re: Seeking therapy

Dear Missing Wayne, first may I say, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE!"  I am so proud of you, not only are you doing better, I see a sense of humor sneaking through and you have given me some great ideas. I LOVE the Sunrise-Sunset T shirt.  Not only are angels all around you so is Wayne and one day you will feel him right where he is supposed to be and watching over you and your daughter.

Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.

Re: Seeking therapy

I will add my Happy Birthday Wayne to Lainy's.  I agree, you are doing better and I too see a little humor there.  The sunrise/sunset idea is great.  And yes, Wayne will always be beside you, with you and in you in your heart and your memories.  I am glad that the therapy is helping.   Hugs are always good & crying is relieving and yes the angels are all around us.

Love & Hugs,
Darla

"One Day At A Time"

All of my comments and suggestions are just my opinions and are not a substitute for professional medical advice.   You should always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health care providers.