Topic: 3 Years of Chemo and Finally Hair Falling Out!!! (Taxotere)
Hi All, Had to break down and shave my hair off my head last night. It was falling out in clumps. Saw Oncologist yesterday and he would like me to do two more treatments of Taxotere and then a Ct Scan to see what's a happening. I agreed at the time but after evaluating everything ,I'm going to tell them monday that I'm taking a break until the first of October at least and we can talk from there. Until then I'm going to make up my own recipe of natural spices and herbs and juices and take three times daily. I'm also going to take that vacation I promised myself. Why the change of heart? Well, when a chemo knocks out all your white blood cells and drops your platelets 50% within 5 days, I figure it time for a break . Also, my wife awoke screaming the other night don't go! don't Go! Jeffrey Don't go! shaking like a leaf. It took me an half hour to calm her down. Just as I though she was back to sleep I would turn my head and she would be looking at me to make sure I was still there. It's time to spend more quality time with my babe. It's as simple as that. I need quality time to assure her I'm still here and that all will be okay and that I feel comfortable in God's hands. Sometimes I feel the longer I hold on the more torture I 'm putting my family through. I've got to find a way to make things a little easier for her. I know I won't be able to take away her feelings of someday I may not be around but,l I can reassure her there still is hope and that it is and has been in God's hands from day one. Oh, I better stop now. I just had to share this emotion with others as I truly understand what many of you have and are going through.
God Bless You All!