Topic: The First Anniversary
We are quickly approaching the first anniversary of my beloved husband's release from this disease.
It's hard to believe he has been gone for almost a year. It still feels like he is here and coming home from one of his work sites any day now.
I'm just having terrible flashbacks of his last days. I cry myself to sleep and cry myself awake. Can't seem to stop leaking tears.
I was hoping to find a significant way to mark the day. It's odd because I don't seem to have the emotional energy to "plan" something memorable. I really just want to stay in bed and pull the covers up over my head. Would that be selfish of me? I just want to hang out with my son and daughter and be left alone by the rest of the world.
You all are so insightful and have wonderful words of wisdom whenever I've asked for advice. Is there anything that makes this dreaded day bearable?