Thank you all for your kind words. Dad passed away at 2.45am this morning and it was how we wished it to be. Mom, Dad and me, peacefully all together. Dad was painfree but fought until the end. He did get agitated at one point, he wanted to sit up and his eyes were fixed to the corner of the room, he kept reaching out as if he was trying to get to someone. This caused his breathing to become very rapid. The DN decided then it would be kinder to fit a syringe driver and give him some drugs to calm him down. They did and 2 hours later he passed away. They had expected him to pass away Thursday night but he kept hanging on, in the end enough was enough and we told him to let go, and he did, as Mom and I held him and told him we loved him. He had been talking to his Mom and told someone "I'm coming in a minute". Mom and I felt waves of coldness wrap round our bodies during the night, it was an experience I can't explain apart from a feeling that he was being met by past loved ones.
He looked so at peace, his jaundice had faded, his skin looked wrinkle free and his smile said I love you, I'm ok.
At the moment I just feel numb, I want to organise things but as it's a Saturday we are in limbo as we can't get the death certificate until Monday. My little one was devastated and it broke my heart to see his little face crumble but we had a good cry a good talk and we will take it minute by minute, it's too soon for day by day. I was so proud of my Mom, she found her strength and was truly amazing. The next hurdle is the funeral. Once again thank you to all my cc family, you are also amazing, and one good thing to come out of this is all of you.
Devoted Daughter to the most wonderful Dad a girl could ask for. Sadly lost his battle on 19.02.11, peacefully in the arms of Mom and I. As requested by Dad "we will keep on smiling".