Topic: Thinking about dad
It is coming up on three years this April since I lost my dad to cc. He would have turned 60 in January and I still can't believe he isn't here. In these few years without him I have gotten married and had a daughter. It was so hard not having him there. I feel as though I was robbed of something and so was he. I know he is "always with me" but I long to see his face and to have a conversation and a huge bear hug. I guess I go through hard times this time of year because it reminds me of the few months we had left with him after his diagnosis. I still get so depressed thinking about all of the things he's missed. And mostly about all of the things I know I've missed without him. I try to be thankful for the times we did have but it gets the best of me sometimes.
I have not been on this site in awhile and I must say that it is comforting to know that I'm not alone. It also makes me feel good to see all of the resources and info available to everyone affected by this disease. I am so glad to know these resources are here for other families that receive the horrific news of this diagnosis. At the time we got the news about my dad we felt so alone. The one glimmer of hope was this site at the time although most of it was under construction. It is wonderful to see so many people reaching out to each other and helping one another. Good luck to you all with whatever mountain you are climbing.